Suicide Mission

You guys will think I am fucking crazy.

I want to challenge myself to a death match tonight. I will piss over the edge of the abyss and laugh in the face of my fate.

The challenge is this: I am going to a strip club, and attempt to bring one of the girls back home. I am not leaving the club until I score, or the place closes.

The reason why I am doing this is a complex one. I do not want to repress my urges. I want to repurpose them, redirect them towards real sex. I want to throw myself in the deep end and be surrounded with triggers in every direction, but unable to fap due to the fact that I am in a public place. My only way out, is with a girl. As a backup, in the event that I do not manage to bring a girl home, I will spend the rest of the night in a 24h café with my laptop, reading and posting on NoFap.

I want to rewire my brain into associating sexual urges with getting lucky. And destroy the neural path between sexual urges and fapping.

Wish me luck, boys. This night will be an ultimate test of my willpower.

 

I am not really looking for opinions.
I am walking into the fire with a newfound conviction. If I can trudge through the worst case scenario, where temptation will be at its highest, and make it through with my objective fulfilled, the rest of the way will be a cakewalk. Success in this suicide mission will build a bullet-proof confidence for the future challenges to come.

And bring me closer to my long-term life goal.

 

When I go out, I spend very little money. I don't drink, and I know how to stay out of the customer zone. All it takes is to be clear with your intentions of why you are there. I grew up in Montreal, where there are more strip clubs per square foot than there are regular bars. I started visiting them at age 16. I am familiar with this type of environment, and I have a lot of stripper friends, a stripper ex, and a stripper roommate. Trust me, it might work for me where it would not work for someone else.

 

The cost depends on two things:
a) depends on the stripper herself
b) depends on how good your game is

If your game is good enough, you can actually maker her want to fuck you for free. Happens all the time, boys. Think about it: if they didn't like sex, they wouldn't be in the sex industry.

 

Okay!
It seems like God is sending me a warning of some sort.
Here's what happened: I couldn't find my ID when I was getting ready to go to the strip club. I'm a pretty neat guy and I keep my place tidy so it didn't make any sense. Still couldn't find it. And then my friends invited me to a byebye party because 4 of them are flying out across the country and I won't be able to see them for the next 4 months. My values dictate that my friendship with them is more important than the silly Suicide Mission I wanted to put myself through, if the ID part wasn't enough.

So I spent the night in the good company of my friends, laughing and drinking homemade apple cider. I thought about bouncing them to the strip club but I refrained from that. The strippers can wait

Sooooo tonight! I got no plans for tonight, so we'll see how it goes

 

I think I need to post my objectives on my profile. Everything will become clear then!
But just for you here's the deal:

• I am a pickup artist and I challenge myself to seduce women that are really hard to get.
• Strippers are good practice to hone my skills.
• I want to improve my PUA skills to become an instructor an make a living out of it (people pay retarded amounts of money for this).

There's a specific set of rules to follow when you're doing stripper game:

1. Befriend the DJ;
2. Never pay for a dance or a drink;
3. Do not hit on, compliment, or touch a stripper;
4. Stick to your material;
5. Change subject whenever a stripper starts reciting stories she tells every other guy.

That being said, the 'woman love' part is not really what I am looking for, due to the fact that being in an exclusive relationship will get in the way of my objective.

 

You seem to refer to a very old school type of game. I don't believe in that smoke and mirrors crap.

Congruence, intent and confidence is everything.
And numbers are worth nothing to me.
It's same-night lay or it's nothing at all.

What can I say, man. Works for me