WillyWilliams
Fapstronaut
I have officially been off porn for 12 days and it has been the best 12 days of my entire life. I am experiencing:
-Unconditional happiness
-Very fast muscle gain / fat loss
-Complete loss of anxiety
-Euphoria that I can physically feel
-Non-stop energy & massive work capacity
-Insane concentration, ambition, and motivation
-Tighter relationships with family & girlfriend
I'm wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar & to this extent? I seriously feel like I am turning into Spiderman or something. My case isn't the most usual one though. Doctors have failed to explain something that happened to me as a kid and I believe it is the cause of why I'm feeling like I have super powers. So here is my story:
I experienced something super weird when I was 7-8 years old in 2nd grade. During gym class I was climbing up a giant rope and had an orgasm. Nothing came out, I didn't have a boner, but I had the crazy good pumping/throbbing feeling of an orgasm. I have no clue how someone so young would be able to do this and the doctor I saw today is literally trying to tell me it didn't happen. My 8 year old self was just an innocent child, I had no idea what was happening, all I knew was that it felt good, and classmates cheered me on when I made it to the top, so I was rewarded socially. After these incidents on the rope I began to figure out other ways to make it happen. I could lean on a desk, push my pubic bone against a hard floor, hang on a basketball hoop's pole, you name it. My only guess is that it's caused by my pubic bone pressing against my prostate. I don't even remember how frequently I did it, but I know I did it a lot.
I did that all the way until 7th grade when I started to really hit puberty and get boners & produce cum & masturbate & watch porn. So from that point on I would just watch porn and jerk off a lot. Back then it was just a quick little thing I would do that seemed perfectly normal. It didn't seem too weird until college when I notice I was getting in a routine of going home to jerk off after a long boring class.
I should mention I had a pretty successful dating life all throughout my life. I was hooking up with plenty of girls BUT I had a huge premature ejaculation problem. I couldn't last more than like 10 seconds max. So I would tell myself that jerking off would desensitize me a bit so I could last longer. I have no solid evidence to prove that method works, but it was a way for my brain to justify watching porn and jerking off. Fast forward a few years, the premature ejaculation kind of goes away, but I keep watching porn. I was super active my whole life, but the porn made me sedentary for the past two years. It gave me a bad back (had a herniated disc in college and it just got way worse), depression, really bad anxiety, and I maintained a horrible carb & sugar filled diet. SO, to put it simply, life kind of went to shit, I had a major depressive episode, then watched a video series by Terry Crews about porn addiction, and I knew had to quit.
Here's a breakdown of what my first days off porn were like. A big thing to keep in mind is that I started exercising intensely a few days before quitting. I went surfing every day for hours (huffing & puffing intensely the whole time), the surfing started to cure my terrible back pain, and it also was the most fun I've ever had!
Day 1 - Pretty hard, lot of temptations all over social media and everyday life. I counted like 12 urges but there were prob more. I was fine though, I smoke weed daily and the last time I quit weed for a month was way harder the first day/night. Went to the gym in the AM and surfed in the evening. Bought some books to learn about addiction. One of them is by Russel Brand.
Day 2 - Still pretty hard, just as many temptations, went surfing again for a couple hours because I didn't know what else to do. I am a successful self employed entrepreneur that works from home. I should have mentioned that working from home is a horrible combo with this problem. I joined a meditation class this day too and it really helped.
Day 3 - Not as many temptations, joined a yoga class, surfed for a little. Also got a decent amount of work done, more than the usual. Relationship with girlfriend has improved TREMENDOUSLY over these 3 days too. Mood definitely improved, anxiety going away. Had sex and it was amazing.
Day 4 - Another full day of surfing. Multiple sessions & a lot of time spent reading books about addiction. Note that my diet so far has been super super clean. Cut out bad carbs completely and only ate really healthy meats, fish, veggies, fruits, nuts, and fats.
Day 5 - Yoga in the AM and great mood all day because my back pain is going away miraculously. Got a lot of work done, then went to do a swimming workout. All I can say is HOLY SH*T. I pushed myself so hard in this pool it's not even funny. The most intense workout I've had in over 2-3 years. I was resting at the end of the pool while catching my breath and BOOM...BRAINBLAST x1,000,000. My brain just started PUMPING ideas. I am an entrepreneur so the ideas all pertained to growing my business & increasing my income. I could not stop planning, thinking, and being extremely optimistic about my life & everything I was doing.
Day 6 - Even better. Amazing mood, laser focus, maximum confidence, and I am getting JACKED. I had very visible muscle growth and my belly was eating itself away. 2 weeks ago I was about 165 with a decent dad bod / beer belly. But that was all changing.
Day 7 - Still going strong, and getting very strong. Abs are developing and my belly is quickly going away. Diet is still great, but tummy has been hurting here and there. It's also been somewhat tough to eat but part of that was due to me restricting myself to only meats/veggies/fish/eggs. Brain blasts have been happening every night after I do 10 mins in the sauna and very intense swimming workout. I push my body to the limit then next thing you know I'm creating spreadsheets, hiring my first two employees, finishing work at record speeds, and realizing how clear the path to a successful future is. Also had sex, it felt better than ever, and it didn't take me off the energy train!
Day 8 - I was always the grumpiest guy in the world when I woke up but now I'm waking up in amazing moods. Also waking up fully recharged and ready to go after only 5ish hrs of sleep. It's been pretty hard to fall asleep because my mind is racing like crazy, but in a good way. It's the complete opposite of the normal tossing and turning, it's just me laying there being extremely happy with life. I could stay up all night and be perfectly happy if I wanted to.
Day 9 - Definitely feeling less of the euphoria, and starting to lose a little bit of energy here and there. Still overall really happy with amazing concentration and power to workout 3 times a day without getting sore. I'm noticing that I thrive in conversation. I can't stop talking and words flow out in a really crazy freak good way. It's like my mind is living a few seconds ahead of the real world. I see objects physically fall almost before it even happens. My love handles are completely gone now too!
Day 10 - Again, less energy, same stomach problems & trouble eating food. I'm noticing that the food trouble goes away after really intense workouts. Medium intensity workouts don't do the trick. I have a feeling some of these weird diet & stomach issues might have to do with me being in a state of ketosis. I don't really know what it feels like to be in ketosis but my diet certainly keto. No more intense brain blasts after working out. But I still end up working until like 2am after these 10pm swim workouts I've been doing. I went from being good at my job to being ridiculously amazing at it.
Day 11 - More feelings of teetering on the edge of moodiness, but still extremely happy & experience all the same positive benefits like extreme confidence, non existent anxiety, laser focus EXACTLY like being on adderall. I'm noticing the real super power that I have gained. It's the inability to slack off. Whenever my brain comes up with a thought about something that should be done, I do it. I'm the complete opposite of lazy. Falling asleep has gotten easier and easier. Working out 3 times a day still and working 15ish hour days. Also noticed my beard got thicker and my nose hairs got long out of nowhere.
Day 12 - I went surfing for the first time in a few days and feel like I went up 10 levels since my last time surfing. A week ago I used to have to take breaks carrying the board from the car to the water, now the board feels like a feather. I'm also about to stand up quicker on the board, like a million times quicker and I do not get tired anymore. I describe the experience as something similar to how a baseball player would perform if he corked his batt (or took steroids). Had trouble eating in the morning but still have the same laser focus and lack of anxiety. One of the best ways I can describe these past two weeks is like if I got all the benefits of 50 years of meditation, but without meditating. Its just wired into me.
Here's what makes most sense to me. Please someone chime in if I'm wrong or if you think you know what's happening to me. I believe my testosterone levels were probably being hindered by this addiction my whole life and now I got a crazy boost. I also think I got an initial boost of testosterone when I switch from the sedentary lifestyle to the surfing lifestyle. Maybe that testosterone gave me the power to quit porn and then I got another insane boost from quitting the porn. I saw a few articles that describe what it feels like to get a boost of testosterone and it was word for word the way I feel. Also, if the guy that wrote the post called "10 Super Powers I Gain From Quitting Porn" could get in touch with me that would be awesome!
-Unconditional happiness
-Very fast muscle gain / fat loss
-Complete loss of anxiety
-Euphoria that I can physically feel
-Non-stop energy & massive work capacity
-Insane concentration, ambition, and motivation
-Tighter relationships with family & girlfriend
I'm wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar & to this extent? I seriously feel like I am turning into Spiderman or something. My case isn't the most usual one though. Doctors have failed to explain something that happened to me as a kid and I believe it is the cause of why I'm feeling like I have super powers. So here is my story:
I experienced something super weird when I was 7-8 years old in 2nd grade. During gym class I was climbing up a giant rope and had an orgasm. Nothing came out, I didn't have a boner, but I had the crazy good pumping/throbbing feeling of an orgasm. I have no clue how someone so young would be able to do this and the doctor I saw today is literally trying to tell me it didn't happen. My 8 year old self was just an innocent child, I had no idea what was happening, all I knew was that it felt good, and classmates cheered me on when I made it to the top, so I was rewarded socially. After these incidents on the rope I began to figure out other ways to make it happen. I could lean on a desk, push my pubic bone against a hard floor, hang on a basketball hoop's pole, you name it. My only guess is that it's caused by my pubic bone pressing against my prostate. I don't even remember how frequently I did it, but I know I did it a lot.
I did that all the way until 7th grade when I started to really hit puberty and get boners & produce cum & masturbate & watch porn. So from that point on I would just watch porn and jerk off a lot. Back then it was just a quick little thing I would do that seemed perfectly normal. It didn't seem too weird until college when I notice I was getting in a routine of going home to jerk off after a long boring class.
I should mention I had a pretty successful dating life all throughout my life. I was hooking up with plenty of girls BUT I had a huge premature ejaculation problem. I couldn't last more than like 10 seconds max. So I would tell myself that jerking off would desensitize me a bit so I could last longer. I have no solid evidence to prove that method works, but it was a way for my brain to justify watching porn and jerking off. Fast forward a few years, the premature ejaculation kind of goes away, but I keep watching porn. I was super active my whole life, but the porn made me sedentary for the past two years. It gave me a bad back (had a herniated disc in college and it just got way worse), depression, really bad anxiety, and I maintained a horrible carb & sugar filled diet. SO, to put it simply, life kind of went to shit, I had a major depressive episode, then watched a video series by Terry Crews about porn addiction, and I knew had to quit.
Here's a breakdown of what my first days off porn were like. A big thing to keep in mind is that I started exercising intensely a few days before quitting. I went surfing every day for hours (huffing & puffing intensely the whole time), the surfing started to cure my terrible back pain, and it also was the most fun I've ever had!
Day 1 - Pretty hard, lot of temptations all over social media and everyday life. I counted like 12 urges but there were prob more. I was fine though, I smoke weed daily and the last time I quit weed for a month was way harder the first day/night. Went to the gym in the AM and surfed in the evening. Bought some books to learn about addiction. One of them is by Russel Brand.
Day 2 - Still pretty hard, just as many temptations, went surfing again for a couple hours because I didn't know what else to do. I am a successful self employed entrepreneur that works from home. I should have mentioned that working from home is a horrible combo with this problem. I joined a meditation class this day too and it really helped.
Day 3 - Not as many temptations, joined a yoga class, surfed for a little. Also got a decent amount of work done, more than the usual. Relationship with girlfriend has improved TREMENDOUSLY over these 3 days too. Mood definitely improved, anxiety going away. Had sex and it was amazing.
Day 4 - Another full day of surfing. Multiple sessions & a lot of time spent reading books about addiction. Note that my diet so far has been super super clean. Cut out bad carbs completely and only ate really healthy meats, fish, veggies, fruits, nuts, and fats.
Day 5 - Yoga in the AM and great mood all day because my back pain is going away miraculously. Got a lot of work done, then went to do a swimming workout. All I can say is HOLY SH*T. I pushed myself so hard in this pool it's not even funny. The most intense workout I've had in over 2-3 years. I was resting at the end of the pool while catching my breath and BOOM...BRAINBLAST x1,000,000. My brain just started PUMPING ideas. I am an entrepreneur so the ideas all pertained to growing my business & increasing my income. I could not stop planning, thinking, and being extremely optimistic about my life & everything I was doing.
Day 6 - Even better. Amazing mood, laser focus, maximum confidence, and I am getting JACKED. I had very visible muscle growth and my belly was eating itself away. 2 weeks ago I was about 165 with a decent dad bod / beer belly. But that was all changing.
Day 7 - Still going strong, and getting very strong. Abs are developing and my belly is quickly going away. Diet is still great, but tummy has been hurting here and there. It's also been somewhat tough to eat but part of that was due to me restricting myself to only meats/veggies/fish/eggs. Brain blasts have been happening every night after I do 10 mins in the sauna and very intense swimming workout. I push my body to the limit then next thing you know I'm creating spreadsheets, hiring my first two employees, finishing work at record speeds, and realizing how clear the path to a successful future is. Also had sex, it felt better than ever, and it didn't take me off the energy train!
Day 8 - I was always the grumpiest guy in the world when I woke up but now I'm waking up in amazing moods. Also waking up fully recharged and ready to go after only 5ish hrs of sleep. It's been pretty hard to fall asleep because my mind is racing like crazy, but in a good way. It's the complete opposite of the normal tossing and turning, it's just me laying there being extremely happy with life. I could stay up all night and be perfectly happy if I wanted to.
Day 9 - Definitely feeling less of the euphoria, and starting to lose a little bit of energy here and there. Still overall really happy with amazing concentration and power to workout 3 times a day without getting sore. I'm noticing that I thrive in conversation. I can't stop talking and words flow out in a really crazy freak good way. It's like my mind is living a few seconds ahead of the real world. I see objects physically fall almost before it even happens. My love handles are completely gone now too!
Day 10 - Again, less energy, same stomach problems & trouble eating food. I'm noticing that the food trouble goes away after really intense workouts. Medium intensity workouts don't do the trick. I have a feeling some of these weird diet & stomach issues might have to do with me being in a state of ketosis. I don't really know what it feels like to be in ketosis but my diet certainly keto. No more intense brain blasts after working out. But I still end up working until like 2am after these 10pm swim workouts I've been doing. I went from being good at my job to being ridiculously amazing at it.
Day 11 - More feelings of teetering on the edge of moodiness, but still extremely happy & experience all the same positive benefits like extreme confidence, non existent anxiety, laser focus EXACTLY like being on adderall. I'm noticing the real super power that I have gained. It's the inability to slack off. Whenever my brain comes up with a thought about something that should be done, I do it. I'm the complete opposite of lazy. Falling asleep has gotten easier and easier. Working out 3 times a day still and working 15ish hour days. Also noticed my beard got thicker and my nose hairs got long out of nowhere.
Day 12 - I went surfing for the first time in a few days and feel like I went up 10 levels since my last time surfing. A week ago I used to have to take breaks carrying the board from the car to the water, now the board feels like a feather. I'm also about to stand up quicker on the board, like a million times quicker and I do not get tired anymore. I describe the experience as something similar to how a baseball player would perform if he corked his batt (or took steroids). Had trouble eating in the morning but still have the same laser focus and lack of anxiety. One of the best ways I can describe these past two weeks is like if I got all the benefits of 50 years of meditation, but without meditating. Its just wired into me.
Here's what makes most sense to me. Please someone chime in if I'm wrong or if you think you know what's happening to me. I believe my testosterone levels were probably being hindered by this addiction my whole life and now I got a crazy boost. I also think I got an initial boost of testosterone when I switch from the sedentary lifestyle to the surfing lifestyle. Maybe that testosterone gave me the power to quit porn and then I got another insane boost from quitting the porn. I saw a few articles that describe what it feels like to get a boost of testosterone and it was word for word the way I feel. Also, if the guy that wrote the post called "10 Super Powers I Gain From Quitting Porn" could get in touch with me that would be awesome!