Taking recovery to the next level

lekasenor

Fapstronaut
A little background about me. I found this site about 3 1/2 years ago.
I’m in my 30s. This addiction is still fucking with me. But I’ve made progress on many levels. So here’s where I’m at now. My habit and pattern in the last year is I go about 2 months or so and then have a slip. I went 4 months a year ago. I went nearly 6 once as well. But never longer than that. I would like to take my recovery to the next level and thought I will start posting here more. Because when I went 5 1/2 months, I was posting here much more. For me, as brutal and painful withdrawal can be, I usually slip later down the road. In a later stage of withdrawal or not even when I’m in withdrawal. It’s when my life gets bigger in conjunction with having a really bad day is when I usually fall back down the rabbit hole. Also when relationships have ended, I feel really triggered inside and that usually has lead me to watch porn. I want to abolish this story. I want a new story. I want this story gone. I can’t afford to have these slips anymore. They make me feel intense levels of shame and self doubt, which I do not feel when I am sober. So I think for me I’m looking for new things to do. I also believe deepening our relationship with God is so important. Even if you’re not religious, you can find ways to connect with a higher source, it could simply be nature or exercise. I would love to hear from people who have been sober past 90 days about what they’ve done to overcome this addiction.
 
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