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Taming the beast.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by TheT, Sep 24, 2017.

  1. TheT

    TheT Fapstronaut

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    Tamer here.

    After over 10 years struggling with porn, I finally admitted to myself that I am addicted, this is not a guys thing, nor is this what all men do.

    Living in a society of middle eastern origins, sex is considered taboo, so we all revert to the next best easiest thing, which is porn, that made things escalated pretty fast, and the rabbit hole went deeper beyond measures.

    Im married, with a lovely little boy, successful at what I do, and I am runing everything, by a click on that little red play button.

    Me and my wife have been separated for over 5 days now, I thought it's her fault, I kept telling myself that this all has to do with her, and how she treats me ..

    The fact is, it might be right, but I magnified it, like x10000 .. I doubt that the seperation had to do with her, Im pretty sure it had to do with me ..

    I'm becoming a person who is passive, aggressive, and just a horrible horrible person..

    I guess what am trying to say is, I finally looked it up, I finally had the guts to face myself, and admit that I have a serious addiction.

    I know that for my marriage to work, and for my life to work, and for my kid to become what I dream for him to become; I need to be better.

    A better man, and a better husband, and a better father.

    I can't be better at anything, while am addicted to a play button.

    I'm taming the play button.
    I'm taming the buffer time.
    I'm taming the thumbnails.

    Here's my journal.

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/the-diary-of-a-struggle.130013/

    Tamer,
    Out.
     
    Last edited: Sep 25, 2017
  2. MindfulAchilles

    MindfulAchilles Fapstronaut

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    You sir, are deep. And you definitely have your head screwed up right to start this journey. Welcome!
     
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  3. TheT

    TheT Fapstronaut

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    Didn't expect ill be getting a reply so fast, thank you!
    I needed that.

    Please follow my journal, I would very much appreciate your support sir!
     
  4. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you.

    Would you please copy/ paste a link to your journal here so that we may more easily find you?

    The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
     
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  5. TheT

    TheT Fapstronaut

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    Strategy is, keep myself busy, each time I get the urge to open porn, I leave whatever im doing, and do something else that is tiring, like cleaning.

    I think that each one of us has a trigger, and each one of us has a blocker.

    I'm just trying to figure out what triggers that urge, and what can block that urge, i doubt it's time, because it's all in your brain, it's the easiest and most convenient thing to do when you are alone, or when you are bored, perhaps that's the trigger?

    Well, the fight is just starting, and im sticking to the final round.

    Here's my journal.
    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/the-diary-of-a-struggle.130013/
     

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