Tantra

i go through a lot. There is liberation of the sex energy. Or rather eliminating the split i had the judgement I had. I learned to embrace. Tantra is one piece of it. But was not my way. I discovered myself. But tantra fits to it. Now I am on the next. The embrace releases a huge tension and problem I had. The porn addiction that went with it I think I can completely let go. The addiction to sex not yet. I am still quite driven. I get it under control but the many many years of these deep patterns and wrong use and torechannel does not go overnight.

That I don’t have to live the urge a big thing. The urge still there. The super sexy girls in town certainly driving this too summer too. But I learn to not act and to embrace to live different and in doing so often letting go and it coming and going. This is nice. But it can also still shift and pull in old patterns and habits. It needs more patience and training and mindfulness.