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Hello,

I came here because I thought I was addicted to internet porn. Since I have been here and read so much, I realize that I am not. I have been 4 days PMO and haven't missed porn at all. I do however realize that I am addicted to masturbation.

I am unlike most of you as I am 52 years old. I just watched the one recommended YouTube video that explains why even though I was using porn almost every day, why I never got hooked. I feel so bad for all of you who have to deal with this.

At 52 I don't think I should be masturbating every day. It has been clear to me for a long time that I use it as stress relief, as a coping mechanism, and that it has become a habit and compulsory. It doesn't effect my day to day life much, I don't spend a huge amount of time on it although I do stay up WAY to late on occasion. I don't have a partner I'm "cheating" on or who I can't satisfy because I masturbate too much. They say an addict will justify his practices but I don't feel I'm hurting anyone or myself, in fact, I attribute my regular masturbating to my good health, but I feel like it has gone too far and I would like to try to rein it in. Porn is a plague on society, I would like to refrain from using it.

It's only day 4 and I'm climbing the walls. I so want to just relieve myself. I realize that the 90 days is set up to help people recover from porn addiction, but I am quite curious to "reboot" myself and hopefully find out what my sex drive should be for a 52 year old.

I read a post by a 16 year old who was asking if it was OK for him to masturbate once a week. I was shocked by the number of people telling him what he was doing was wrong.

It's always been big question for me. I've said "sex is the drug we are all born addicted to". There is a "normal" and "natural" sex drive that we all have, but how do we express it when, say, we are 16 and really shouldn't be having real sex, or when we are 52 and don't have a partner and haven't in quite some time. I feel both of us need to masturbate from time to time, but how much is too much.

I hope to explore and maybe find the answers to this and many other questions I have about sexuality here. Thank you so much to all who set this up and participate. I look forward to finding some deep philosophical like minded people to connect with.