That was the final straw.

Yep you guessed it. Relapsed... again.

I’ve tried soo many different things to try and rid myself of this. None of which have worked. I know in the end it comes down to yourself and the decisions we make. Every failure is on me and I know it.

I even blocked Porn on all my devices. That doesn’t work because I always find a way around it. Even if I didn’t find a way around it I ended up using devices that porn can’t be blocked on, like my smart tv or my fu**ing gaming console. This shi*s everywhere, like a disease.

Willpower alone only gets me soo far. So I’m resorting to getting rid of every device I can watch Porn on. That means my 4K smart TV will have to be relocated to a relatives house. Along with my iPads. Unfortunetly I can’t do much with getting rid of my phone, as it has all my information on it. Although I did block porn on it... even though I never use my phone for porn anyway.

I know that what I’m doing is only avoiding the problem by getting things out of the house but I need to help myself. If it isn’t there tempting me I think it will be easier. Still difficult, but easier.

So come tomorrow morning. I will be saying goodbye to my iPads. Which are responsible for 95% of my relapses. (Yes I know that it’s actually me that’s responsible and not my iPads but you get what I mean)

I know that I should have done this a long time ago. I’ve been trying to give up porn for 3 years now. Damn that’s gone quick. Could of been 3 years free from this virus. Good day fellas.