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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Kratos_GOW, Jun 13, 2019.
I am in! Check in Day 1.... hope to breakthrough and become a Spartan!
You start from day 0 warrior
Day 1 checking in
(I assume my first day yesterday was "day 0")
day 82, everything alright
Check in day 11. I love when I enter here and see so many comments and so many people, this is a community, a family. We can reach everything we want, and if we are together walking the same path everyone will succeed. Thanks to everyone.
Yes, we are stronger together!
Check in day 21.
I think today I noticed the social benefits for the first time. I caught myself hunching over then my mind going “You don’t have hide, you’re a man. Stand tall and proud.” I stood on the train in public and looked around at all the people and I felt genuine affection for the people on the train. I wasn’t looking for the next opportunity to start a woman’s cleavage or rank the women in terms of looks. I was genuinely concerned that they would make it to their destinations safely and that they felt safe.
This week will be a challenge but I caught my first glimpse of what I have read and heard in all the success stories.
I spent 22 hours with no food, just coffee and tea and water. It was fascinating to watch my agitation, emotions, a roller coaster. I had to work very hard to maintain my patience with family. I did very well until the very end when I was tired of people speaking to me in a condescending way.
but I also felt a lot of power from the discipline. I was walking in a grocery store and I felt like I was walking a bit slower than normal. My posture was more upright. Instead of feeling small and meak, I felt strong and confident. I noticed a few times a woman would be looking in my direction and then her boyfriend would slide his arm around her. Then, as I was leaving, I had this voice in my head saying someone is going to get mad at you. The next thing that happens is this guy walks passed me and says very quietly ‘why are you so slow’. Now normally I would assume he was talking to me, and, especially in a case like this where a guy has a few inches and fifty pounds on me, I would say sorry nervously and move aside. But tonight, instead, I watched like a movie as I said in a very steady voice ‘are you talking to me?’. The guy looks over and says ‘oh no, I was talking to myself, bad habit’ and laughed nervously and walked away. I wasn’t looking for a confrontation, and I’m glad I didn’t tell him to go to hell, because I have never been in a fight. And would be pounded by that guy! As I walked to my car I thought to myself holy sh*t, what just happened.
I am definitely not interested in violent or aggressive behaviour. I definitely do not antagonize people because I hate conflict. I squirm when someone raises their voice at me. But tonight, for a few fleeting seconds, instead of feeling like a mouse scurrying about the world doing my best to go unnoticed, I felt like a lion. I wasn’t looking to prove anything or make a big deal out of something. It was totally a reaction that is unusual for me. But for a moment I wasn’t the guy who cowered and quivered and ran away at the slightest sign of a confrontation. It’s entirely reasonable to think that the guy was talking to himself. And like I said, the last thing a guy like me wants is a conflict. But for a few moments, I wasn’t that guy. I wasn’t scared. I wasn’t looking for a fight but I also wasn’t afraid to speak up and ask the guy if there was something he wanted to say to me.
The theme here is about discomfort. Pmo is a pleasure pathway I used to avoid everything that was uncomfortable. Thoughts, feelings, situations... for me, Nofap is about ending that escape and confronting the discomfort. Standing up to it. Being present to it. The story of the Spartans in the Hollywood film 300 has the same narrative. A community of people who choose to face discomfort knowing it brings them freedom. No running away. No hiding.
Freedom, Spartans. A-hoo! A-hoo! A-hoo!
Glad to be in your company Spartan. I also stood tall in public today and it felt like freedom! The road ahead will be more challenging. Let us support each other and the other soldiers so we can reach our glory!
Two more days to become a Spartan trainee.
How do I stay in touch with the others if I may ask
Well done mate...eyes on the goal....imagine what day 100 will feel like
Checking in, Day 4. A couple of hours ago I was going through some old photos uploaded to my Google photos app, when I accidentally found some explicit pictures of one of my ex girlfriends from a few years ago. I haven’t opened the app up since before I started My Nofap/Semen Retention Journey. You don’t understand the struggle I was in and I was really very close to fapping (but thank God I did not give in to my urges and I didn’t edge or relapse) but I stopped myself. I told myself “I can’t do this, not again this time. I can’t break my streak, if I break my streak I’ll lose one week of progress which is the longest streak I’ve ever done in my life so far (Now 8 days). I have to keep going and push myself and stay strong, you got this don’t give in to your stupid urges. You are stronger than that.” I closed the app, used the NoFap Emergency button and looked up Nofap stories on Reddit. I thought about Nofap videos, the Nofap forums, the people on Nofap/Semen Retention and the support everyone on this lifestyle brings. I remembered my purpose on this Journey and what better things I can (and should be doing with my life than peeking at Ex GF’s pictures). I think I’m gonna delete these apps right away after writing this so it’ll keep me away from temptations and relapses.
When you really think about it all these porn websites and bad websites and bad things are all just the Devil’s work and also our minds trying to keep us looking at it. And we have to be strong, keep going day by day and fight the Devils and fight our minds. Remember, we are warriors and we are Soldiers fighting the enemies for freedom! Freedom at last!
Glad to see everyone is doing great
Check in day 53!
Checking in after completing day 8
Stay strong warriors
Day 29 furthest I've ever got, I've never been more determined in my life, will not let my guard down, keep going everybody