I relapsed yesterday . Went online yesterday had cybersex which is my porn . Did not masterbate or orgasm , God knows why I'd throw it in and not MO . So I'm resetting. Firstly, totally gutted with myself but I'm climbing back on the horse . Gutted because I see now the pressure ,the fog ,the heaviness , I was experiencing before my relapse IS the fallout from using porn to relieve my stress. Ironic because I'm more stressed now it hasn't changed in that way. Where I see I have tripped up was not seeing the signs , the resignation had been growing for a few days . I drank alot by my standards when deciding to use , I can leave my phone at home when I am in a depressed space . I think i will get a support buddy . I can see i will move through this again i know it, i want to be prepared. I want to experience joy in my life and I havent for the longest time . Porn is a short circuit. I intuitively know I have to walk through this pain , that's what it is , its pain . Its painful being in this space . I choose life. Day 0
Day 0! Trying to quit for 10 years now but now I don't have any other option. Lost my girlfriend and about to loose my job, so its about time.
@Kratos_GOW I already on day 43 My streak started on 22 Aug 2020 I didn't checked in every day since day 1 Because I saw this challenge now Am I counted in?? But from today until GOD OF WAR I WILL CHECK IN EVERYDAY
