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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Kratos_GOW, Jun 13, 2019.
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Sounds to me like you are making progress my friend. Significant progress! You are at a crossroads, and the key is, you no longer wish to cope with your situation; you wish to CHANGE your situation, and that's where the progress is.
You realize what you need to do, and now you are moving forward, engaged in a long-term commitment. You are focused and disciplined, and you are working on accomplishing this long-term goal.
I read your post, twice, and it seems like we face many of the same challenges.
Last night I drank 4 beers and 3 shots, and I felt very tempted to call up my former pot dealer. I came VERY close to calling him. The reason? Pot is a huge sexual trigger for me. Besides making money, it's what I used to live for (sad but true): chase women, get high, have sex and/or PMO.
After 4 months of avoiding women, I'm now re-connecting with them, via dating, which feels exciting, but now I realize that women and pot used to go together, i.e. they were a package deal. I didn't do one without the other. Ever! And right now I really miss the dopamine rush of that package deal.
The truth is, I'm not used to dating while being sober and honest. It's a big lifestyle change, and I actually miss the gaming and the whoring and the deception. Change is tough. There's a void and I want to fill it with drugs, fantasy, and lies. I want dating to be all fun and games, but I'm a new man, and I'm determined to explore and enjoy my life, sober and honest.
I've got so much going for me right now, and, like you, I realize I can change; that I MUST change; that I do not have to accept my old ways. And last night I chose to keep moving forward, exploring life head on, without the aid of PMO, pot, or testosterone.
Day (1)54 checking in
Im starting again and relapsing again, but I will not stop until I will over my mind.
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This is great to see!
New rank tomorrow my friend.
i think im sick tho maybe a flu or something idk, but i refused to take a medicine or see the doctor, since its not that bad,i think i want it cured in natural way, i hope a good sleep + vitamin will do
@Kratos_GOW im reaching a new rank sir hehe
I relapsed today. I was edging alot.
But that's it i have satisfied myself and now I'm ready to look positively towards tomorrow so I'm thinking what I'm doing with myself is not only hurts me now but also affect future.
From now on I'm going to reorganize my routine and going to stick it no matter what happens what I'm feeling what my mind is telling me to do.
One more point I want to include is that i will regularly do meditation atleast 1/2 hour a day without fail.
In these 2-3 day I did nothing means I have exams in coming month and hardly 20 days are remaining and what I'm doing fapping and this is the exam for which I'm preparing from last 6 months so you see how strong is this addiction in my life and its really a ringing bell for me because this exam will change my circumstances and what I'm doing nothing but passing time with p. So from now on atleast for 20 days until my exam I'm going to be in descipline.
So day 0 for me
Thanks for the encouragement Bro
Congratulations @hollyman on achieving rank! Thank you for your daily support and encouragement my friend.
Check in Day ,47,48,49 50,51 ....confidence better , exercise routine is better but my short temper is worse...
@Risho I admire and respect you for your tenacity, resilience, and candor. Glad you're battling. You are a true warrior because you refuse to give up.
Check in day 23. I was a bit irritable yesterday. Need to work on letting things go that don’t work out.
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Start quitting smoking and watching porn! May Lord Help Me.
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