THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN)

Circumstances, failures, and trials never surpass the warrior's resolve, and you are a proven warrior. You refuse to give up, you never lose focus, you never stop inspiring, especially now, when life seems to be so "uphill."

One day you will look back on this period of your life, and you will be amazed how far you progressed, by how much you accomplished.

 

Things seem to be going well lately. Life is always far from perfect, and still I'm up and down emotionally, but the past few days I've had prolonged, acute feelings of inner peace, gratitude, and confidence. If I could feel like this all the time I actually wouldn't mind living forever.

Exercising with renewed focus and intensity. I'm getting leaner. Lots of cardio and minimal reward meals and drinking. No temptations to reinject testosterone. Haven't injected it since December 1, 2019, though I do have it on hand. I'm not ready to throw it down the toilet just yet because I may end up using it again.

Eating clean and minimally, although I have been drinking recently. 3-4 beers per night this weekend, along with a few shots of my favorite liqour. Not the best choice, but I'm not that dissapointed either. My desire and tolerance for alcohol has greatly diminished the past 4 months.

Dating hopper is as full as I want it to be right now. There have been many emotional triumphs and dissapointments, but overall I'm really enjoying putting myself out there and meeting women. I realize that in many ways my life is so different now. I'm 100% honest about everything, so the words just come out. I never really have to think about what I'm going to say. I speak from the heart, which frees my mind and allows me to enjoy and connect with people through conversations. That's new to me, and I realize that women either really like it, or they choose to move on, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have nothing to hide or prove to anybody, and the emotional reward for that is priceless.

Sleeping well, though not the best, and I have only 3 more days left until I quit alprazolam for life. This has been a long-term process: 16-weeks of tapering, and as I near the completion of this goal, I'm realizing that I am going to miss the aid and comfort of this drug. I've used alprazolam for years, and even though I have weaned myself off of it the past 4 months, I'm still not 100% confident that I'm truly ready and willing to quit, so I am really going to have to buckle down and accept whatever may come. One thing I know for sure: the mind and body are incredibly strong and resilient, and I will eventually be able to sleep without it. When the demand for sleep becomes great enough, I will sleep. But one thing for sure: I am definitely NOT going back on this drug. I'll be done for life starting 2/19/2020. What a great way to start my 49th year of life. Better late than never right?

Have a great day Spartans! Thank you for your support and encouragement.

 

I would suggest to go see a therapist. It sounds like you have some insecurities in your life that are causing you pain. Once you face these insecurities it will help you not watch porn.

 

I needed to hear this. Sometimes I won’t be 100% honest with a girl because I’m afraid she won’t want to hangout again. But it feels so much better to be yourself and have the girl like you for who you are. Even if the date doesn’t go well, at least you know you were your authentic self.

Check in day 25

 

May be you are right , but i think the only problem with me is PORN , because of this 1 habit i have faced many bad scenarios in my life . And what i did yesterday was extremely bad . Today all day i was thinking about that incident and was feeling extremely bad . How could i do this to that 12 year old girl how , the answer is porn made me do that. I am imagining about her father , how will he react when he will get to know about his daughter these kind of stuff on the internet . I am in shocked like literally , yesterday's incident shake me from the core , i think this is my turning point in my life , where i can leave porn for once and for all .

By not watching it and by not increasing the demand of these kind of stuffs even if i am able to save 1 girl life that will be enough for my salvation. I am not a pedophile i am not . And i dont want to face this kind of incident ever in my life again , never ever .

 

Day (1)56 checking in.
All is good.
I am doing fine.
I am strong in every aspect of my life.
Still my life is surrounded by my old failures.
But I will repair. Step by step.

 

Day 33/100.

 

Day 3

 

Thank you Spartan, you have given so much to this community. And I am grateful for your support.

 

Me too.

 

Truly inspiring post from a truly inspiring Spartan. Congrats on all your progress. And thanks for sharing so openly with us all.

 

Check in Day 1(38),

Hello Spartans,

This last week I set some new personal records in the gym. And it’s been impacting my mind. I’ve been having thoughts that maybe I can push further in my life. Maybe there is more inside of me. And at the same time the urge army is coming for me. I think they want me to stay weak. To not grow. To not be bigger and stronger. To keep me weak.

Do yourself a favour and listen to the Spartans who talk about obstacles in life. Not just ending pmo. But overcoming personal challenges. Facing fears. Ending pmo is great of course. But the real prize is a new life.

 

Checking in: Day four.

 

@Davyfreedom nice job on nearing 30 days!

I find it to be true: people reject me for being 100 honest. I have a past that I'm not too proud of.

But I'm no longer allowing my fear of rejection to stop me from living 100% honestly, and the power and freedom that I feel from that is exhilarating.

 

Will do! Thanks for the advice and congratulations on achieving personal bests in the gym. Nice to hear that your hard work is paying off

 

day 32

im starting to lessen my activities with mobile phone, by turn the data off 3 hour before i got to bed and not quickly answer chat notification. i hope it work's
i really really wana get rid of this mobile phone addiction
its so disturbing and its potentially make me relapse

if anyone have some tips to get rid of this, please share some

 

Day (1)57
Really tough.
But I overcame an obstacle of my old life.
it made me suffer a lot.
But it is not here anymore.

 

Day 41, checking in.

Glory To God!