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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Kratos_GOW, Jun 13, 2019.
It will pass
Just realized today is Wednesday. Omg. My brain is scrambled. Yesterday the benches would have be all free because all the bro’s did bench on Monday. International chest day. Ugh. I really messed that up. Oh well.
I know how you feel. And yeah, it hits hard when you realize life doesn’t get easier at all. And in some ways it feels like it got harder. The only saving grace is to focus on the fact that with a clear head we can actually change our lives. Which takes a lot longer than changing our state. And we have to face it raw like you said. For 100 days no pmo seemed like eternity, then Suddenly 100 days, or 200 days seems like such a small slice of time when viewed in the context of things like career change, or some five year goal. Still, like you said, it gets harder and harder to go back to my old ways. So for now is just the slow walk to long term freedom and glory.
Stay strong Spartan. I know how you feel. The dread of over due project. That needs still more time to complete. Be sure to take care of your rest and keep your mind clear. It will bring you great success.
You are a real and true Spartan. You are correct in your analysis of your peers. They will then blame everyone around them when the boss has to lay them off to avoid bankruptcy. Keep working on your personal growth and education and training. A-Hoo!
Check In Day 3
Today was a good day for my project. I went with a clear outcome and gave myself a specific time to complete the task. And I accomplished twice that. I went to the gym I coach at. Then to the gym at the university. And then continued working. I had an amazing workout. And I had high level output. My project is not complete, but I’m getting closer and more confident each day. And what will happen tomorrow? I can already see the obstacles. It will be more like yesterday where my time is very limited. And what will I do? I will set my positive mindset. And I will attack my project. And I will train in the gym. Then I will coach others in the gym before finishing my day at home. And all this time it is still possible I will fail.
I will give my sincere effort. I will be positive. I will work hard and smart. I will project confidence. And if I fail, at the project, I will continue to do all of these things and take on a new project. Because I’m tired of living in fear and apprehension. “I’m a human being damn it, my life has value!”
“The warfare is in my mind!”
Check in day 1 & 2
Day 83 *Head Nod*
Checking in: Day twenty-one.
LOL well it seems to me like EVERY Monday could be "International Chest Day" because every Monday I see so many people in the gym doing nothing but barbell bench press.
Anyway yes I trained intensely last night: DB bench press-skullcrushers-pushups-jumpropes.
139 days no PMO. Around the same time I quit smoking weed cold turkey. I was a daily toker for the previous 3 1/2 years.
I'm also 2 weeks free from alprazolam (after tapering 16 weeks), and I stopped injecting testosterone cypionate on December 1st, after having injected it weekly since June 2019.
The past 4+ months have been up and down. A real roller coaster. I've accomplished goals and there have been days I've felt prolonged periods of inner peace, strength, energy, and joy, but I still feel plagued by anxiety, depression, and anger.
Lately my "up" days seem to barely outnumber my "down" days, and my depression and anxiety and anger often seem to have as much, if not more, bite to them, compared to when I was PMO'ing and drugging.
So life still feels like a struggle overall; in fact life seems to be much more of a struggle at times, likely because I no longer choose to escape through PMO, p-subs, weed, testosterone, and benzos.
I'm a bit discouraged that at 139 days I'm still struggling. Occasionally I get glimpses of true progress, but I realize I have a long way to go.
At least I feel comforted in knowing that guys with much longer abstention periods are still struggling.
Day 0- SPARTAN BOY
im so happy to see doing so good in your life while continue ur project
for me i hit a wall today as my hardworking project seem not good enough they told me to re work it....
but you know
not every day is rainbows and sunshine
but that's life isnt it
It's hard changing our lives my friend, I know. For you it's even harder since you're older than me, but my friend we can read in your words. you are changed, but man get used to changes, so now your new self is already used to the man you are now and make you believe that maybe you're not changed, but my friend go back of 140 days, and think about your tipical day. Are you still sure that you're not a brand new man? Struggling is normal.
To achieve what others can't you have to overcome obstacles that others won't
Day 7 checking
Not so much to tell, now the days are all the same since you have no reason to go out frequently .
But today I want to be happy that I avoided the chaser effect, I reached 1 week free, immediately after starting again
Check in day 0. Recap. Sex can lead to pmo relapse. I didn't watch anything hardcore, but I would still classify it as porn. Because of my long term pmo use I couldn't ejaculate during sex (with a condom). After 41 days without pmo this made me very discouraged since I thought everything would go well in bed. Later that night, when I was in a pit of despair, I relapsed. Well, after a second try it turns out it was the condom that was preventing me from ejaculating. So my fear of never being able to have normal sex again was a little premature. My sensitivity might never totally be restored, which is why I couldn't ejaculate with a condom on. Let this be a warning to you. The more vigorously you do pmo, the less sensitive you will be while having sex. Your brain can rewire, but some of your nerve endings might be severed forever.
This challenge has opened my eyes to the benefits and downsides of nofap. After around the 20 day mark I couldn't think about anything else except for sex. My productivity went downhill, lack of concentration and creativity. The interesting thing about this though, is that this desire to have sex, actually got me laid more than once. Let me clarify. I didn't start this challenge with the sole purpose to get laid, but I did want to have sex again, and it helped. That being said, it provided numerous benefits. I use to not be able to stay hard during sex, but abstaining from pmo has helped rewire my brain back to it's natural state (or at least partly). My self confidence has gone up, my confidence with woman has gone up, I'm less socially anxious, and my memory has improved. Because of these benefits I'm going to start again. I don't want to go back to how things were.
Thanks again to everyone in this group who helped encourage me and held me accountable during this journey. I have fallen in battle, but I am ready to get back up again and continue to fight. The enemy will not hold us captive!!! Fight on fellow Spartans!!!
Check in day 7
Check in day 32. After reading some post in this forum today, I realised that the fight really doesn't get easier. I just have to keep pushing forward. I'm glad my fellow warriors are fighting hard and glad about the result they are getting. I am glad to say I will stand my ground