The 2021 Green Day Challenge [OPEN]

Sorry about the reset @Brahmacharya_UK. I have written before that as we use the strategy of progress over perfection, we progress when a reset is viewed as data collection, otherwise we just keep going on the merry go round.

Lets keep progressing.

 

I was away since last days of december, had relapsed last month and a severe cycle of relapse now this month. I didn't know about the game, don't know exactly how we score points but had 3 red days. Now I'm back and hoping to begin a full recovery starting 07/01.

I'll try to be more present here and post at least once every 5 days, this should help my focus and maybe help other people with experiences.

 

Hey guys,
unfortunately i fell too. Was searching the internet, ended up seeing some triggering images, not porn or any nudity but very attractive women with clothes. Realized it was bad for me and stopped. But in the back of my mind the urges started growing. Ended up going back to the images i first saw, searching for more and eventually relapsed on some nude images.
+1 for me.

I just can't be aimless searching the internet, not only is a waste of time, but also i end up being in places that i don't want to be. I need to limit my pc use to useful things, work, hobbies, self development.

Feeling unstable now. I'm going to exercise and do yoga after work to try to fight off the chaser effect.

@Brahmacharya_UK , @BrohkenCompass ,@HeadlessKnight Let's refocus and comeback stronger guys

Stay strong

 

Sorry to hear about the recent relapses within our community here. The goal is to not fill yourself with shame and at the same time understand what occurred and then to incorporate change into those situations going forward. It is about learning for sure.

As for myself, I am probably on one of my better runs. Life is far from going great with the political stuff and the pandemic and the downturn in my workplace. Still, for whatever reason, I have no desire for porn. I have so much more to improve on, but at this moment, porn is just not in mind...it does feel good.

Lets keep progressing.

 

Fighting Mongooses: @Blue Clouds @tonyk1982 @D@rk E @Ainz E
& @BrohkenCompass

I'm really sorry to learn of peoples relapses, and I am unfortunately at right about the same place.
The situation in the US is appalling, and extremely worrying for the rest of the free world.

I am well on the inside of one quite bad relapse myself.
It has gone like this (Strike me accordingly):
3/1/21 - PMO x 2
5/1/21 - PMO x 1
8/1/21 - PMO x 1

I have had every opportunity today to turn this around.
I have acted out again, to my detriment.
A friend even came to help me.
For I am on a path of self-destruction that will only go in one direction.

NO MORE EXCUSES, I AM DONE.
I AM GOING TO GET THERAPY FOR THIS CRAP.

 

Do you guys know programs that block sites? Not chrome extentions because they don't work on anonymous mode. I've read in the forum once about a software that blocks and you can give a password to a friend, I'm interested in trying something like this

 

Yes, i use parental control sotware to block sites, because i can block not only specific sites, but the entire porn category. You can also install it on your smartphone. There are many options in the market, i've used only a few. The best that i've used are, Qustodio, Norton Family and Kapersky Kids.
Qustodio, has a free version, i think is a little bit heavy on your pc, but if you have a good pc it can be a good option.
Norton Family, it only has a trial version. They used to have a 6month trial, but i think now is only 30 days.
Kapersky kids, has also a free version. For me the best free version that i've used, used for a few years, but i started having problems putting sites on the allowed site list.

I've used these three options in the past. Currently i'm using a paid version of Norton Family.

 

Yesterday afternoon was my toughest time during these last 2 weeks. I saw some triggers during a legit online research. My curiosity took control for a short time. In the end, there was no porn, or psubs. However, the cravings/urges were strong, but I decided that I do not want to use a red day.

This morning, I feel pretty good and thankful that I persevered.

Lesson learned.

 

Day 10. Clean. Urges are there, had two wet dreams in 12 days streak. Meditating and doing stretching exercise everyday.

 

sorry i relapsed too

 

I've fallen on chaser effect when waking up, only a "fast search" for specific images was enough. Even that was no P I'll consider a red day cause searched for content I knew would trigger me. The lesson learned is to wake up and then get up as soon as possible, even if extremely tired, don't waste time with your phone when sleepy and tired in bed.

 

Thanks, I'll try this week

 

Checking in.
The first 10 days of 2021 have been super clean for me. I'm feeling really good about this month.

 

Just like everyone here, I joined this challenge because I wanted the strategy of progress over perfection. This method has had a great impact for me in the past 2+ months. I began to feel a change come to me last month. The month was not perfect, but the change in my outlook changed.

I went from doing my best to get less red days, to just not wanting any red days. I think for myself, it is about raising the bar. It is why I have decided to put my red/green days graph in a spoiler in my sig. This is still important to me, but my focus now is leaving the red days behind me.

I keep it in my sig because if a day comes along where I decide that porn is a good idea, that progress of the green/red days will become my focus. My goal has changed to progressively leave porn behind for good. This is my goal.

A well lived life cannot include porn.

@BrohkenCompass , if you feel I should leave this thread, I would understand.

 

@BrohkenCompass please disregard that stupid request in my last post.

The fact is I have struggled this weekend and although my streak continues, I have crossed boundaries that I should not be crossing.

I realize I need both the goal of as many consecutive green days as I can make, but at the same time to hold on to the progress strategy that this thread is all about. The truth is it would be easy to just take a red day and enjoy some porn right now and then just look at the overall picture, which is good overall.

So, I am finding this to be my real struggle between progress and trying for all green days. I want to keep fighting for those green days. I have put myself in a tough situation at the moment, but I really want to move forward without a red day/PMO.

I just need to get through the rest of the day now.

 

Yes the resets are... not ideal. They can be difficult.
Many of us here want to get completely clean. It is possible.

Still, for me when I looked over my year and saw how many days I had abstained from PMO, that was encouraging.
I did an extensive year review and nofap was really the overarching thing to my "year of healing".
So, I'm very happy to be where I am rather than where I was.

 

Read through the posts. I wish you all the best. Yes, challenging times per the news.

I'll be honest. I'm struggling not so much with urges, at least not right now. But I'm having existential type struggles.
Emotionally, psychological, spiritually challenging.
How much is due to going through nofap exactly? I'm not sure.
Likely I've been taking on too much responsibility (in my mind) for the time being.

All that aside, I'm very grateful for progress.
Truly wish you all the best. Keep going friends. I believe in you.