The Batman Challenge - Can You Get Rid of a Bomb?

Crime Fighter @Batty Belfry

 

Here's a song I've been turning to lately. Hope it helps.

 

@Batty Belfry I notice that you're about to get yourself some nice scars. I'm rooting for you buddy!

 

Thanks for the journey! See you in the next one...

 

Back to Robin

 

I stumbled onto some triggering material and peeked two days ago but fortunately didn't act on it. This was a close call since l had a wet dream the night before and could have had a bad case of chaser effect. It wasn't a relapse but it was definitely too close for comfort. Yesterday I was able to safely hangout with my roommates and that was a big help. I'm going on a three week streak and it's the longest I've had in about 3 months. Being a few states away from my family during the holidays and Covid isn't easy but I'm lucky to stay in close contact with them.

My goals for the next week include:

• Continue exercising soon after work and in the morning on my days off
• Cook some healthy meals and meal prep on my weekends
• Send some last minute gifts to my out-of-town friends & family
• Do some nature photography for my Flickr account
• Keep watching Star Trek (in moderation)
• Play some games on PS2 & PS4 (in moderation)
• Read (and maybe finish one of the books I'm reading)
• Maybe go fishing with my roommates (weather and crowd dependent). Gotta be safe and socially distant, of course.
• Call and check in on a few friends & relatives

 

I relapsed late last night and first thing this morning. Last night I was drinking with my roommates and then stayed on my phone when I went to bed. I was looking at p-subs on Twitter which led me to Google images and then a full p site. This morning I immediately went to check my phone and scrolled for far too long and went to the site again. Between a potential covid exposure, the new strain from the UK, and being away from family during the holidays, my drunk brain leaned on PMO for stress relief.

On a brighter note, I made it to 21 days (my longest streak in a while). I'm going to continue the good habits I've developed and cease the bad.

Here are my goals for the next week:

• Pack up a few boxes for my move in a few weeks
• Cook some healthy meals and meal prep on my weekends
• Continue exercising daily in some form
• Read (and maybe finish one of the books I'm reading)
• Have a strict no peeking policy on Twitter and Instagram (I've deleted both of the apps from my phone)
• Only check news while I'm on my lunch break at work to avoid stressing out at home
• Stay off phone while in my bedroom
• Call & check in with friends and relatives

This might be the relapse I've learned the most from so far. I'm gonna focus on forgiving myself and moving forward. With a little more effort and maybe a little luck, I can make it to 30 days and beyond.

Keep on.

 

Here's some music that you may or may not like. Feel free to play it while you cultivate better and healthier habits.

 

Getting frustratingly repetitive with myself. I just relapsed again after 5 days clean. It started out with some stress from getting ready to move which led me to peek at some porn subs on youtube then some explicit material on reddit.

While I'm once again disappointed with myself, I have been making a little progress. Over the past 5 days I knocked out a few short term goals including meal prepping with healthy food, exercising regularly, finishing one the books I've been reading, and talking on the phone with a few friends and relatives. I relapsed because I didn't follow my rule of no phone use in my room with the door closed.

I need to find a balance between being too tough and too permissive. After a lot of my relapses in the past I would mentally kick myself and over-dwell on my failure. On the flipside, there have been a few relapses that I wouldn't see as a big deal and then proceed to binge. There's gotta be a way to move forward and forgive myself without becoming complacent.

In order to reach 30 days and beyond, I gotta let go of PMO. Here's to another clean week.

 

Tonight will mark 3 days clean.

Here are my goals for the next week:

• No PMO or peeking on social media
• Continue exercising regularly
• Put "Urge Protocol" into action when an urge arises (high rep exercise, cold shower, walk outside, etc.)
• Stay off phone while in bedroom. Leave bedroom door open if roommates are home to avoid edging.
• Only check news while on my lunch break at work
• Pack up more boxes for moving
• Go for a hike
• Play some games on PS2 or PS4 (in moderation)
• Meal prep with some healthy food
• Call & check in on some friends & relatives

Also, here's a topic for the group if anyone has any thoughts to offer:

I've come across a few questionably credible youtubers that offer some valuable life skills but also give a platform to what seems like pseudoscience. Is it a good idea to still support them since they give some mixed vibes?

Good luck and Godspeed to everyone in recovery. Onward to 10 days!

 

@Batty Belfry I've ranked up. You wanna know how I get these scars?

 

Day 32 – Bruce Wayne

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I slipped up last night. I was trying to switch out a hard drive on one of my computers and it wasn't working which made me frustrated. I started looking at model accounts on Instagram and Twitter and then started looking at porn sites for about 3 hours. I was dangerously close to having a full relapse binge session but held off from MO. Most of the stuff I saw while I was scrolling didn't do anything for me, even scenes that I watched frequently in the past. I had a headache immediately after peeking and then went to bed. While I'm counting this instance as a slip-up, this is by far the worst slip-up/peek I've ever had.

That being said, I'm currently on a 23 day streak free from orgasm. I accomplished a few goals this past week despite the slip-up. I organized my room and unpacked a few more boxes from moving. I started grad school and submitted a few assignments ahead of time (normally I procrastinate till the last second). I've been exercising regularly in some form (pushups, pullups, & sit-ups). I got some healthy food to use for meal prepping. I've been texting and calling with a few friends from out-of-town.

I've also listened to a few podcasts called 'Your Brain Rebalanced' and found them to be quite helpful. One of the key ideas I took away from them is to not focus solely on a day counter. Some of the podcasters proposed using spreadsheets or physical calendars instead to keep track of the recovery progress. Another key idea is to focus more on adding activities to life rather than focusing on just subtracting PMO. Does anyone else use a physical calendar/journal in addition to a day counter?

Some of my goals for the next week include:

• No PMO
• No peeking or edging
• Absolutely no Twitter or Instagram
• Submit grad school assignments a few days early
• Meal prep with healthy food
• Continue exercising daily in some form
• Start a new book
• Do some nature photography on one of my days off
• Practice mindfulness/meditation for a few minutes

Here's a link to the podcast; I highly recommend a listen while you're cooking, driving, or doing some other activity:

 

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