The beggining of my journey to self control

[boy_meets_evil]

Hello everyone,

I'm a 19yo student that is currently struggling with a porn addiction problem. The habit of watching porn has become so normal to my brain that I can´t go one day without doing it, there are days that I masturbate to porn up to 3 or 4 times, but I usually do it twice. The addiction has become so strong that even if I don´t sexually feel the urge to masturbate I do it out of habit. I'm currently struggling with low depression and I feel that porn isn´t helping at all, I want to land a software engineering internship but I just don´t feel the motivation to start any project, the addiction isn´t only affecting my work life, but I also feel the effects that it has on my confidence and overall perspective towards women.

What I hate the most out of my current addiction is the fact that everytime after I orgasm for the second time, I feel the numbness of my pleasure receptors. I dont enjoy sleep, or anything till a few hours(8-10) have passed.

So today I have decided that I´m gonna quit porn altogether. The masturbation part is something that I currently cannot do without porn, so I will use it as a way to evaluate the progress of my detachment from porn.

wish me luck in this personal growth journey that I'm about to undertake.

 

[I'vebeenlost]

Hello everyone,

I'm a 19yo student that is currently struggling with a porn addiction problem. The habit of watching porn has become so normal to my brain that I can´t go one day without doing it, there are days that I masturbate to porn up to 3 or 4 times, but I usually do it twice. The addiction has become so strong that even if I don´t sexually feel the urge to masturbate I do it out of habit. I'm currently struggling with low depression and I feel that porn isn´t helping at all, I want to land a software engineering internship but I just don´t feel the motivation to start any project, the addiction isn´t only affecting my work life, but I also feel the effects that it has on my confidence and overall perspective towards women.

What I hate the most out of my current addiction is the fact that everytime after I orgasm for the second time, I feel the numbness of my pleasure receptors. I dont enjoy sleep, or anything till a few hours(8-10) have passed.

So today I have decided that I´m gonna quit porn altogether. The masturbation part is something that I currently cannot do without porn, so I will use it as a way to evaluate the progress of my detachment from porn.

wish me luck in this personal growth journey that I'm about to undertake.

Welcome to the forum! I wish you the best of luck on your new journey. It sounds like you've identified some great reasons to break the addiction. Stay strong and when the temptation comes try to remember those reasons. Also, it's helpful to identify what triggers you. Don't be discouraged if you relapse! Just keep up the fight and continue to make progress.

 

[romlel]

Welcome man!
First well done coming here : )
Rebooting is just a start towards a healthy lifestyle.
Rebooting is for mind and body : you can do qi gong, meditation, walking...(it helped me a.lot) and reading daily here or payer for the mind whatever you find best.
Learn from relapse.
Wish you a interesting journey : )