For a few years I've been someone who has been a follower of NoFap and read the journals and success stories of other people but never made an account up until now. I'm 19 years of age and have been masturbating for approximately 7 years and been addicted to porn for about 6 of those years, watching and masturbating to it daily. At first I didn't feel any effects of porn and lived a relatively normal life but the past 2/3 years have been extremely sad and difficult for me and I believe my addiction to porn and masturbation has played a key role in this. I have tried to do NoFap on multiple occasions but unfortunately the longest I have managed to reach without relapsing is about 7/8 days. In fact, there's been times when I have been doing NoFap where I have actually masturbated while I am sleeping or in a dream which highlights how severe my addiction is. In this period of time I have lost a lot of my friends and started to become an extremely socially awkward and anxious person. It probably sounds completely stupid but the only way I can think of explaining it is that I no longer know how to act, where to stare in public and often miss social cues as well as acting awkward and many other things. I never used to be like this and the worst part of it is I know that I'm doing these and don't know how to prevent it. For a long period of time I have been severely depressed and have thought about killing myself nearly every single day. I read somewhere that porn addiciton can cause brainfog and poor memory which would make sense because porn has fucked up my brain so badly that sometimes when I try to do NoFap I forget how many days I haven't masturbated for. There's a lot more I could get into but I don't think anyone would want to read all of that. I made this account to hopefully receive some tips and advice from others and possibly get over this addiction to become a better person. The last time that I fapped was on the morning of Sunday the 10th of November, meaning I am currently on a streak of 3 days. I will update my progress every week and describe my feelings.