The Beginning

Alright so here we go I guess.
I've actually wanted to do this for a long time now but never really motivated myself doing it. But anyways.. let's start:

About one year ago, in April, I first heard about NoFap, self improvement and all that. I was fascinated by it and quickly began to actually change my life. But things weren't really working out. I relapsed over and over and over again. My longest streak was just 14 days...I even started to work out but nothing really helped.
Now to 2018:
As I said I just couldn't help myself and relapsed after a short amount of time. 2018 was right around the corner so I decided to make a big change. I basically created a olan how I want to live my life and all that and it worked out perfectly...until Thursday this week. I got completely lost in video games again (actually it was Rise of the Tomb Raider). I grinded that game like shit and I ignored everything around me. I was edging and shit. Had dry ogasms and shit. I thought I could get over this when I finish the game but I was wrong. Today...I relapsed again. The whole day was just a waste...again. I was so SO convinced if myself that I can do this. I wanted to quit PMO forever. But I failed.

So here we are now...I don't know what to do. Should I ignore recent days and just forget them? Like..just pretend it never happened? I mean it was "just" 7 days and my streak could go on. I really don't 2018 to be "ruined" by this day. Or should I still start over and count from 0? Idk really.
Why am I even writing this..