No no, not my 30th birthday...been there, done that lol. Yesterday was my completion of my first 30 days of the NoFap experience. Like many others here, I have tried and failed for years to abstain from PMO. I would usually go at most a week or two, I would get triggered (usually by stress), relapse, and then feel like crap for a while. Rinse and repeat. I think what has been different this time is that I am seeing everything written out in black and white, and I am a competitive person, so I want to drive myself to meet my goals. Previously, I was just vague about it and said I'll just stop doing it but have no goal or plan on how to do it. I also read up and researched the impacts of PMO on the body and mind and couldn't believe the lies I had been telling myself to rationalize my actions. Being on here and reading others' stories, struggles, and successes have been huge motivators too. The benefits are real. Anyone who has read my other writings knows I don't buy into the "superpowers" per se, but I have had an improved mood, much less stress and anxiety, fewer anxious thoughts, and yes, I have even been noticing more attention from females. I also have had fewer urges to even think about porn, and I find I don't miss it. One drawback I have noticed is wildly fluctuating energy levels...which frustrates me because I do have a regular life to live. I'm hoping that will level out over time. If I can offer any pieces of advice, it is this - keep yourself busy! Do something. Anything. In the first few days where my mind went to PMO more frequently, I would just find something to do. One night I started cleaning out a drawer at 10 pm. Another day, I literally spent an hour shredding paper that had stacked up, lol. Also find what triggers your thoughts and find productive ways to quell them. Try to think about other things. For me, the shower was when I would MO regularly. So if I felt turned on, I would just start talking to myself about something totally off topic, and it really helped. Stay positive and if you put your mind to it, you can achieve healing from PMO. I'll be back in 60 days to report my 90 success story.