The cost of chasing unlimited stimulation

Hi
Im a 23 year old male who started with porn at 12. porn has caused many troubles within my life. I have a thing for big mommy milkers and have seen the best female figures in the world. feel like ill never be the same again. PMO has been a everyday thing averaging about twice a day for 11 years. No lie, I'm actually a attractive male who has had many opportunities to have relationships and sex, but every time I've turned it down. First time trying to have sex I was unable to preform when I was 16. My friend group cant understand why I would pass on every attractive women that has seen interested in me and make fun of me for being a virgin. Being out-casted by friends has deepened my addiction to porn. About a year ago I've used a large bottle as a vacuum device for my penis like a pump which felt good. Ended up applying too much negative pressure to myself which has permanently caused a curvature when semi hard. I notice my erections aren't rock hard anymore and cant retain one for very long. I think I have permanently damaged my member and feel like ill never be the same again. Too embarrassed to tell anyone or go to the doctor to get it checked out. Hoping it is just PIED cuz I am able to get a straight erection when fully erect. I just failed my 7 day streak.

 

In the process of seeing the doctor, appreciate all the support from this forum. Have meet the devil with this addiction and becoming more faithful is helping. Would never wish this on my worst enemy.