The Desperation in Loneliness

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by the_williams, May 7, 2020.

  1. the_williams

    the_williams Fapstronaut

    In loneliness, I wonder about the numerous scenes that have continued to play within my own imagination. Relapsing only ignites this strange feeling in craving more. It makes me wonder:

    1. What is truly going on with me?
    2. Am I really beginning to change from this terribly addictive behavior?
    3. How will I be able to explain this one day if things become progressively worse?

    To answer this question -- I decided to make a 2nd entry here as a new member.

    I've been a member here before, years ago.

    Then suddenly, my own ego was offended from not receiving any responses. Quite frankly, I gave up... Refusing to signing on from feeling sorry. Giving up on myself was easy to accept; the idea that masturbating is completely normal. Arguably, it was taught as apart of the development in human-beings.

    I made the mistake in assuming that I can do better on my own, without help.

    I was wrong.

    I began to wonder the purpose in social intervention groups that encourage rehabilitation by our local peers. It all has a purpose. "Why not just give it another shot?" Is what I tell myself. If I fail -- I'll probably join, again. But that is why I am thankful for these communities, they serve a purpose in drawing light into a seriously growing situation in the lives of many people.

    We might be facing a world-wide epidemic.

    But this is another epidemic that doesn't receive enough attention. Did we ask ourselves the appropriate age for people to learn that pornography can be a real addiction? Did we ask ourselves the long-term consequences in constantly, masturbating? If we did -- I would like to know.
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  2. fg4795

    fg4795 Fapstronaut

    Too big question my friend. Majority of people does not recognize the long term consequences even if they're 45 so I guess we stil need to wait.
    To endure in being lonely, in being the minority.
    But we can be lonely together.
    Glad you joined again
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  3. Candun

    Candun Fapstronaut

    It's great that your back on track. I've also tried to convince myself many times that my habits regarding pmo are "Normal". But deep down, we know this is a lie and we will always end up back on the path of recovery.

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