The difficulty of not relapsing

Relapse is very easy to take place if we don't focus for a little bit. It's too hard to not relapse because we go against the nature of finding our sexual identity (at least what doctors say) but it still can happen. Everyday life is a real trap to relapsing, during reboot proccess you find almost anything hot. The problem is that when you are during that period of rebooting and you are feeling fine, suddenly you see suddenly something hot depending on your gender and you are at the edge of messing up, suddenly you feel the urges and you become depressed like it's the end of the world if you don't masturbate. This is what gives me on my nerves. We have to believe in ourselves and prepare for any sudden scene that may cause us urges.