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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by primordial-saiyan, Apr 2, 2019.
Day is going to be a good day, filling that emptiness with spirituality.
I thought i would double post because possibly i could reach out and connect with someone on here that could use it.
Hell mode 2/4
Yesterday was an amazing day but i was feeling empty by the end of it. Since i slept with an escort the day before and from when i first did it after a long time on a bachelor party recently; I’ve been wanting it like crazy again. This time its different, my mind wants to relapse on drugs and alcohol. After an amazing day, at night came the feeling of emptiness and wanting to party. The thought of doing drugs, or boozing hasn’t been a thought for a while up until now. Doing things that bring us back to our old lifestyle are triggers and we must create a new path.
I PMed last night, so i dont go out and use again.. When i feel like I’m empty i need to mediate, pray, read. I cant eat past 12 o’clock, i went and go fried chicken at 1am even though i was dead tired. I was trying to fill the hole inside me... I need to fill it with spirituality and my higher power. I forced myself to wake up early today and get my day right. I will start on the 12 steps today and put that as a priority.
I recently started helping people and the response from them (which i never expected back) is amazing, I’m getting msg telling me that they appreciate me in their life and I’ve helped them in ways no one else have. One man told me this morning he was on the path to death but i saved him and now he wants to live. I used to only help people when i had something on them i wanted back, it was always a game. I never once thought i could help someone and not expect anything.
Today will be a good day, good things are coming. Here’s a quick reminder to myself when feeling empty (restless, irritable and discontent)
1. Get down and pray
2. Read things from the big book
4. Call someone
5. See if you can help someone in need
I can sort everything out tomorrow inshaAllah. I have work to do today.
On day 6 now.
Hell mode 3/5
Today was a great day. I did everything i had to do but go to the gym. I forced myself to come home early when everyone was pushing me to stay out, i put myself first. I prayed morning, meditated and now i will be praying before bed. My mind is on check today. Feeling GREAT!
Day 22 check in
Checking in... Still continue day 9
@StraightEdge3616 I relapsed, you win. @Saiyan123
Never give up...
You can do it
I'll never give up! I'm determined to win this addiction. For me is 08:09 now, at 09:00 I'll study and at the 11:00 hours stop for the lunch!
Greetings fellow fapstronauts.
I am 17 yo, passionate about programming and math. I also like chess and football.
My best streak is 37 days and my current streak is 21 days.
I would like to be part of this community and compete in duels.
To all the fellows...
After all is
important that you and your sacrifices are rewarded and that you see results. It gives you another courage, another consolation, and another strength to continue your struggle. It's been half a year since I was able to escape the habit, the addiction ... of course the struggle doesn't stop there. Surely I spent years in this addiction and it still takes time, courage and boldness to break the bundle. But for the moment let's take a pleasant break to enjoy, enjoy the event and the moment. After half a year... Hard mode ... clean from PMO ...!
And because this fight (so this victory also) is common, thank you very much everyone for succeeding today. Thank you all for your support and kindness.
Thank you for this.
@Saiyan123 I'm very fired up today man. Been waiting on a reply, but if your busy its all good my friend.
You are such a wise person starting to care for your health in such age will benefit you for the rest of your life stay focused and best of luck
@franed98 how are you doing? I won the internal battle this morning thinking about not wanting to lose to you.
I am doing fine. Still on track. Faced some urges this week but I managed to stay laser focused. Hug Jörg
@010010010100000101001101 how are you doing? I am doing fine but tell me something about you.
you ok? Urges? want to share somethin?
I fell we talk so little for being in a duel together.
Day 23 check in @Saiyan123
Thank you for your presence here in this forum. Reading your posts help me stay strong.