@waiter95 Checking in for the day. Did the exact same mistake as yesterday and now I have seven hours I'll never get back. So, this morning I had an online class because coronavirus, and it was programming class. I had multiple strokes trying to comprehend the unclear instructions that could be taken in 1,000 ways as per usual with this class(Not sure if it's real shitty English or something else, but my money's on the former). It was at this frustrated state that my brain came up to me and said "Hey, you could use some relaxation right now, boot up a game." Well, actually I could use some relaxation after that extremely frustrating episode, but seven hours was wayyyyy too much and now my plans went to Hell. Hopefully I can somehow make it up tomorrow.
Okay I want to dwell, can someone help me? I'm 27 days in already, and I want to keep going because it is becoming harder. Don't think I'm too strong, but also don't underestimate me.
Checking in @ohayou615 @Timmyrogger @primordial-saiyan Sorry I missed checking in for a few days recently. But I'm still fighting. Hope you guys are doing well!
Count me in! How about a daily check-in (for a few days), maybe it would help us get through the tough times.
@waiter95 Checking in for the day. Did the same mistake again, except that it's not as bad this time, but still 6 hours of my life....ouch. Well, hopefully tomorrow I can truly cut it out, as I think my brain is starting to get used to it and demand that I use my free time to game less, but I still need to have some solid control over my thoughts to pull it off. I'll report on the results tomorrow. As of yesterday's hope of somehow making it up, I did. Turns out that I could actually not only pull off my plans for the day when pressured, but actually finish the next day's as well. I think this made me slack off a little today and led me to dump 6 hours down the proverbial drain. Well, if I pull off what I did yesterday again a couple more times I don't think I'll be so stressed about my assignments anymore.
@Pedro.kills @primordial-saiyan Checking in, still no fapping and no cumming. But damn, as I moved to a new city I did check some escorts online this morning... and did edge a bit... Gotta acknowledge the mistake and the risk, this cannot happen again. Doing all good in the other areas, keeping up the hard work and the physical body training, Take care!
@WolfHound 獣 how are you doing my brother? Approaching a year this place has been open and feel as far as I have developed forward it isn't enough for me. Last 2 days I've felt really lonely in this journey because I know I could have such a different life to the one I choose but hopefully it's just a phase.
I am high of life . You can be checking my new journal from time to time. I hate to talk I love to dominate . Je suis desole, jamais satisfait quand je vais dans mon lit . You need the next level . When you love Allah, you never lonely .
I love all this and you're right I need the next level. I don't feel lonely anymore. Realised that 2 days ago today, was the start of my year of self improvement. I wasn't praying, I couldn't read arabic, I was PMO 5-6x a day and couldn't stop. I look back and that was hell, eating like shit, doing nothing with my life but failing uni, no friends. I'm amazed tbh and just smiling at how far I've come and realised I need to go further.
@waiter95 Checking in for the day. Ended up losing 7 hours of my life solving a relatively minor problem with my programming assignment. Went through a lot of stress and frustration, my worst enemy as they are basically big signboards saying "Hey, all urges welcome!". Came under siege multiple times through the day, almost fell a couple times, but I'm still unscathed at the moment. This problem really took a lot of mental effort on my part and basically left me weaker for the day, which sucks. I still have a lot of stuff on my plans left undone, which is further stressing me out.
