And I will start my insight today with my relapse. Why I searched for porn? I reflected on it. Here what I discovered. I don't miss watching porn. I missed the feeling of searching for it. The brain tricked me into searching for it. But as soon as I entered the site. End. I just scrolled the page. Just to feel the task completed. The point was about the search. I missed breaking the rule. I missed failing. I missed the old me. The one who always "broke the rules". Being drunk, maybe some light drug and porn. I wanted that feeling back. I wasn't able to replace it with something better. So my insight is that yes I improved a lot about my porn addiction. I am getting out of it. But, at least for me, I found the main problem. "Sometimes there’s nothing to go back to but you still miss it so much". I still miss the old me. I still have a little voice that maybe I was happier before(even I know it is bullshit). But here my problem with porn now. It's not that I like it. I like the feeling of searching it. Now I know what I need to do. And I will do it.