THE DUELS OF NOFAP: NO PMO TOURNAMENT | OPEN FOR ALL

I reset . @The Legend of Hope @cr7da8055

Reason why ? Yesterday at night 34 I had my first WD , of course I hate them .
And when I had , my body was really tired I've been doing a lot of body movements, sports, workouts etc etc .
So, I was about to bust but I still didn't cause I catch it on time and I believe it cum in the prostate .

So, I catch myself doing stupid shit . Why I am doing this ? No logic to me, why ? After 30+ days I said in my last reset, 30 days ain't none to me . I don't miss porn, I hate being full . Very unnatural to me . Sperm is no looking good . So, I have to stop indulging in the idea of Semen retention . It ain't right to me and I am lying to myself .

I am not feeling cool coming before doing my thing on a reset .
But the reason I came is, because I promised to HOPE that I will come if reset happens .

I don't no what to do now . I have to much work, I am constantly on the books . I find no interested in P, neither in SR though, neither in M . I cannot have woman, cause I am investing all I have in me . So things are not good at all (like a vision, like sexual release )

In other cases, I feel amazing . The effect is more placebo . It's the mindset that make it do it, it ain't the counter .

Hard work and dedication,
cheers .

 

I reset as well. Almost edged and that's too much for me. I hate it. I can't take this as win.

The same goes for me. I have don't have any good way to get some dopamine. I also hate how I am complaining about this.
I really hate all of this. How could I fall this far. How could I become an addict... I am just disappointed that I didn't make it yet.
Being still here... If I am that strong then why don't I win against all of you. NO! I AM NOT AN ADDICT. THEREFORE, I DON'T USE PMO ANYMORE. ONLY ADDICTS DO THAT. SO FUCK PMO.
I have a goal, therefore I will do my work to get there.
I challenge you again @Leader of ME
I even feel the fear rising by just typing these words... but it's alright. It's just an emotion.. it's not real.
From now, you won't win against me anymore. None will. ONLY ADDICTS USE PORN!
This right here is my favorite ability. The harder I get hit the stronger I get.
I am afraid. But this is alright. I don't feel like I can do this without suffering a lot. But this is alright. If that is the price I need to pay it's alright. I can take it. Why? Because I am the Legend of Hope

 

Let's go the distance again .

I will again come in if something bad happens, if not will come when I finish my mark and then set the next .

Wish you find the proper way .

 

I will do the same.
Do your best. Because nothing else is enough.

 

Checking in for the day. My throat is better now, and this day still went okay, especially for a Friday. Feeling a little accomplished today since my work turned out rather well.

 

Checking in for the day.
I did look up something I shouldn't have,but got the idea after watching some football cartoon. Nothing major will happen out of this. I'm sure of it!

 

So randomly my hand slipped in and I came. It was all happening when I was asleep. Probably because of what I saw yesterday,but nothing major after that.

 

Checking in for the day

 

Day 2

- I am a porn addict
- Porn takes away my sexual energy
- Porn takes my clarity and edge
- Porn causes me to be insecure
- Porn makes me feel lonely

This is why i don't watch porn

 

Me available for the dual
Day count : 0

 

Checking in for the day

 

@fg4795 if your reading this I relapsed. You won this one.

I’m not going to dwell on it or think about it. I’m not going to binge. I’ll just keep moving forward and continue to pray and fight. If @primordial-saiyan @Leader of ME (whoever assigns the fights) has another opponent for me I’m ready.

Fuck porn
Fuck Masterbation
I am a warrior and I will fight the good fight.

 

Fucked up twice during the weekends. I do not know why. At least it's only twice over two days which is a huge improvement compared to previous weeks(The two weeks earlier don't count, I may not had relapsed due to being terrified, but I was so terrified that life sucks even harder than if I relapsed 10 times a week). Made a recovery from that today, no urges so far. Might had got a little too hyped for a fanfiction update to the point that I get what is apparently anxiety symptoms(or it could be leftover stuff from earlier for all I know)

 

Day 1

Porn addict

- I will not have ED
- I will be fully confident
- I do not want mental cloud, I will be creative
- I will be No. 1

When urges arise

- I will pray
- Put electronics away with web browser
- Cold shower
- Walk

 

Checking in for the day. Apparently the Bundesliga and Ligue 1 aren’t farms. The ucl is really something!

 

I am up for a duel

 

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