I have been battling pornography addiction for a long time. I'd like some of your thoughts on an observation. The harder I try, the bigger the breakout is. Consider an analogy. Imagine someone with a penchant for chocolate cake. It is their guilty pleasure. Being overweight, they go on a strict diet. No chocolate cake is allowed. In this case, after several weeks, they give in and a binge occurs. So much chocolate cake is consumed that the person is sick after eating several cakes in succession. Perhaps this one binge session involves eating more cake than the person would have normally had over the previous weeks should they not have been dieting! When I don't try very hard, I have small breakouts but more often. They are less of 'events'. When I try really hard, it ends in an explosive pornfest where I can masturbate for hours/days and often over boundary pushing material. Is this common? I'm guessing I'm not alone. The harder I try, the bigger the ensuing binges. Feeling really frustrated and a bit hopeless.