THE INTERSTELLAR CHALLENGE !

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by hoping_cannon, Jul 15, 2020.

  1. Day 1.
    Farming the crops.
    Been quite down and out with life.
    Thought some pictures would help elevate the depression. Of course a picture progresses to the colour tube and a few seconds late. What the frick have I done. I've probably been stuck in this stupid habit nearly 15 years and it never ever makes me happy. Why do we believe that lie only to be severely disappointed the second we get off. How lame and pathetic.
    I see couples out walking around and I know if I don't stop this lame habit. I'll never have that. Been a long time since I've had that. And the only reason I don't now is because I have given in time after time. Giving in is not giving up however.
    I will never stop fighting this cancer.
    Who's with me. Onwards and upwards.
    Screw fapping that's for losers. And none of us are losers.
     
  2. Revanthegrey

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    We are with you
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    Screw pmo!
     
  3. DRAGON_

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  4. Mathman1994

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    Sorry about your struggles. But as you say, fapping is for losers and none of us are losers. You have got this. What is your routine like?
     
  5. Mathman1994

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    Day 3

    I went to bed at 7:45PM last night. I had completed my daily goals by 7:30PM, so I figured might as well sleep. I naturally woke up at, I estimate, about 5AM, but I told myself it was not time to get so I laid in bed until my 5:30AM alarm and then even though I was awake, I said I would do my chores later (which I will) so I laid in bed until 7AM to receive my swimmer's ear antibiotic ear drops, and then I fell asleep and woke up at 8:20AM, ten minutes before work starts. If I am going to be getting up at 5/5:30AM, then I will need to find something to fill my time if I do not do chores. (Part of the reason I did not do my chores at that time was that I shower afterward, but I need a haircut and I shower after haircuts, so I thought that I would wait until this evening to do both). I am working now (on my break actually), and I had one of my students ask if I could eat lunch with her today. I asked my team, and they said it was not a good idea, but I think she wanted company as her grandmother wants her to be online all day, and I think she was lonely.

    Sweet girl, but I also have to acknowledge that it is my paid break, and so I should step back. Anyway, I am feeling burnt out. Funny how getting up earlier means I am more awake during the day (after my 9AM crash) and so getting up at 8:20AM to start work at 8:30AM was a bit too late for my body. I simply had too much sleep.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  6. Revanthegrey

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  7. Day 1 Back to Farmer
    Hello to the corn fields and digging up the soil again for good.

    I feel the sad when I edit the Voyagers list for members from Day 30+ to set back to Farmer section. It takes two full scroll down to reach Farmer to move them. Those two scroll page is the efforts they put in their way cannot be measured.

    Stay strong all!
     
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  8. Day two or 42hours and 36 minutes.

    Have definitely had the chaser on my case today.
    But I decided that even though sometimes I can't feel Gods presence I know he's still there. And for that reason I'll stay clean.
    My body is not made for immorality or pleasure but it is a temple for the Lord.
    I've been thinking a lot that this world is quickly running out of time and if God decides one day soon that it's over and Armageddon arrives I certainly don't want to disqualify myself from being taken out of the world.
    I'm talking about the rapture there's a book series and also a movie called left behind if you guys want to see what it means from an easy going source like a movie. It's actually on Netflix but it's an event that will happen one day. No one knows when but I'm not going to be caught fapping on that day.
    Also had work call me and they want me back on Monday I've really got to focus on just going and doing a good days work.
    As I'm not sure how other than by divine intervention I even have this job.
    Anyway stay strong brothers let's do this together this time.
     
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  11. Mathman1994

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    Day 0

    I feel like emotional crap. I was doing an exercise for a porn recovery group I am in and it was very triggering and I relapsed right after that. Then I had a very upsetting therapy appointment (learned somethings about myself that I did not like) and I came home and fapped twice within 20 minutes. Needless to say, I feel like shit, and I just want to run away and hide from technology. Unfortunately, I have work tomorrow, and then Saturday I will be playing in the largest remote duel Yugioh event ever, though that should be alright because when I am playing Yugioh, I am not thinking about porn. However, if I consistently lose, then I will need to be careful, because my relapse after nearly 22 days in May was due to feeling crappy about consistently losing. I just have to remember that all I have to make it to is round 3 and then if I am losing I can drop and I will have gotten the participation prizes. However, I feel confident in my deck and win or lose I will go into it to have fun.

    I am in serious need of a cleanse from stimulation. I am overstimulated right now, and I feel burnt out. I am just sick and tired of this crap. I am an addict and I don't want to be. My therapist also suggested that my OCD may be playing a role in how I see myself, and especially it may explain some of tastes in porn which stem from some things I learned about my family when I was just entering high school. I just feel like I do not know who I am. I was hit by a lot of whoppers today, and I just want to puck in disgust.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
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    Come on colleague you can, there is nothing left to accept and improve.
     
  15. Mexica027

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    These last few days it has been difficult for me not to give up and I have been distracting myself a lot with video games so much that I have had to sleep late, so I will have to deal now with two addictions. it's going to be a big challenge but to give it
     
  16. Mathman1994

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    Day 1

    Don't know what to say today. Feeling slightly better after working outside in the early afternoon.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  17. This life is made up of Peaks and valleys. We make it to the peaks sometimes but the valleys are just as important as the peaks.
    Use the valleys to work out some positive changes as to how your going to make it back to the peak.
     
  18. Well it took me four days to recover from this relapse!
    Will hold onto how terrible it was next time I even consider it.
    Almost finished this round of farming looking forward to moving on. Let's go brothers!
     
  19. Revanthegrey

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  20. Mathman1994

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    Thank you. I had a decent day today. Made a mistake in the Yugioh event I was in and I got penalized, and I decided to quit. However, then I realized that if I quit whenever things got hard, I would never make it in life. So I rejoined, and I am now 2 days clean. With that said, I just need to make it through tomorrow, and then Monday, July 12th, at midnight, I will change my counter from no PMO to meeting my goals. Of course NoFap will continue to reign supreme, but I also need to focus on my other goals in life lest I be relapsing in more than just PMO. I will probably restart at day 0 on that day, but instead of being because of PMO or MO, it will be because I chose to 0 out my counter. I will be in control. Not my urges. I will be in control. Not my bad habits, and when I make it to 90 days on this new counter, I will do it knowing that I made it on right lifestyle choices. With that said, while missing one days goals will not count as a reset, if I lose my way for 4 or more days out of 7, I will count it a reset of poor life choices. I know that this challenge only requires no PMO/MO, but if I want to turn my life around, that is not good enough, so I will take a new look at life in absolute recovery.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     

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