Day 14, Padawan: I'm finding it hard to focus on school right now. My mind is fixated on the stuff I was fapping to before my current streak.
The stuff you were fapping off to, wasting your lifeforce your essence your god fluid. The stuff you were fapping of to is dog poo spray painted gold, it's feces spray painted gold. It's worthless, it's of zero value, it's the heart of darkness. It's the road to anxiety, depression.
Still Day 0. Been feeling the chaser effect really hard, but now I think I am ready to put it all aside. Best, Mathman1994
I felt that rush that comes when I think about the stuff I have fapped to, it's a very hard feeling to deal since it comes very quickly. Still going strong having a late night but can't help it today but I'll make sure not to bring my laptop into my room.
I've been in the hospital for a week almost. Just got out last Friday on my birthday one of the roughest birthdays I've had. I feel obligated to start this challenge and see where I end up.
Hey everyone! It's been almost a week since I have posted anything (death in the family and family drama that goes along with it). That being said, here are my check-ins: Saturday's Check-In Rank 109 Jedi Council Member Sunday's Check-In Rank 110 Jedi Council Member Monday's Check-In Rank 111 Jedi Council Member Tuesday's Check-In Rank 112 Jedi Council Member Yesterday's Check-In Rank 113 Jedi Council Member Today's Check-In Rank 114 Jedi Council Member May The Force Be With You!
Rank 1 Today I told the house manager/minister at the place I live that I am a porn addict and he was very empathetic. Did not demand to know if I had looked while in the Christian house, which I was very thankful about, and he said that he too used to have trouble with porn and dopamine cravings and that unfortunately it is a very common, seldom talked about disease. Best, Mathman1994
Day 16, Padawan: I'm over halfway to knighthood! I'm glad he was understanding. Telling someone in real life about your porn addiction is a big step. The only person I have told was my therapist, but I remember it being a huge release, finally being able to tell someone what has been inside me for so long.
