473 days semen retention 44 days no sex Le petit prince An ex girlfriend gave me some years back the little prince book in french as a present, she even wrote some words in the book dedicated to me. I lent the book some days back to the girl I'm seeing, she wanted to have it, I'm also teaching her some french. Today she wanted to write over the book and asked me if it's ok. I told her that the book is now hers and she can do it. She was delighted, I've never seen her so happy. It's strange how a little detail can change a persons mood. I'm also starting to study some neurology. It's fun.
Day 131 Today and yesterday I've had some of the strongest urges ever but it does not matter how strong the urge I will not masturbate or watch porn. I will not be defeated by this addiction.
Day 0... I thought I'd indentified my thought pattern when it came to P, but had to find out the hard way that it happens much earlier than I thought it did. Weekends are so difficult. Need to pick myself up again, but not forget why this happened.
Monk vs relationship (from a former monk perspective) Current streak: 474 days no PMO, semen retention I was a monk, I lived in a monastery, and also I was a voluntary celibate for many years, I had this notion since 10 y.o to be a free man and my happiness needed to be independent from any external source, including girls. At some point in university I decided to date girls, it wasn’t as bad as I thought and I can say some months with a girl taught me more about myself, than 10 years alone doing meditation. In Taoism celibacy is considered an advanced practice; they consider that to balance your sexual energy is more difficult while being single. At the beginning dating girls helped me to balance my sexual energy, also girls have helped me to work on myself, they act as a mirror of your own flaws, they can make you go crazy, angry, lustful if you don’t handle a relationship the right way. The problem of being alone is that you can simply ignore your own flaws and it won’t matter, with girls is more like being at war you are in the battlefield and if you don’t want to die you need to develop emotional, psychological and energetic strength so you can handle a girl. As you can see dealing with girls as been more for me a process to help me grow, they are more like a psychological work to me than a pleasure. Right now I still keep learning from girls, so I keep dating. Maybe later I’ll be back to be alone. Only time and my own evolution will tell. Conclusion -See your interactions with girls as a process of self-growth
