interesting, yes ! indeed we have the potential to create mental images that help us decide whether or not the impulses are right, which are more important as they are there for evolutionary purposes... but hijacked by addiction.
day 27 i am wondering if my overall absence of positive feelings is caused by withdrawal... i never was a "people person" so that's a part of it, and now i might only be faced with it, i don't know... woke up at 5:20AM did my workout, worked well at school, and have eaten great meals so far. i must stay alert.
Does that mean that my mind thinks porn is part of me and wants me to go back ? Whatever the case may be I am never going back to hellhole. And if my mind thinks porn is part of me how much days are required to make it forget or think that porn is not part of me ?
i'd rather say that there is a part of you that believes it needs porn, and it wants to live ! so it asks you for porn... so you'll have to negotiate with it. but there will be negative emotions involved i'm afraid... that's part of the game.
Day 28, did my workout of the morning 3x8 pushups 6x10 abs 3x10 lifting 10kg of water each arms everything thanks to the Force ! as usual i feel weak face to the fact i have no one close to me... it leads to anger and frustration... but that is okay... my goal is to feel okay around girls. hmm... did i ever say that last sentence ? all things considered, i must stay alert.
Please count me in. I should note I am not really prepared for this arduous journey. I feel I will be repeating training I am a wild creature of the forest squeezed into suburbia
Guys I was going through internet just then an ad popped up and led me to a site [should have had used my own laptop]. But I closed everything in 5 mins and didn't fap. But I was exposed to porn again so Falling back to day 0. I am angry at myself for not blocking popups on all family devices .
