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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Marcus Aurelius, Aug 25, 2019.
day 76- jedi master
workout at wake up, at 5:XX AM. i had a dream of me watching porn. I DID not do it for real. YES ! i don't feel the need to touch myself, but honestly i feel like i could do this stupid thing and relapse really easily. so i must still pay attention, make one with the Force.
i can keep on.
Day 116 - Jedi Council Member
Now officially a Padawan.
Day 0, reporting for duty.
day 77 - jedi master
Even I have that dream sometimes. Till now I thought I was the only one getting such dreams.
Day 116, the force is getting stronger!
Nofap day 2
No porn day 1
Day 1 - Youngling
Yesterday was a horrible day and an all time low. I woke up, and went on edging for a solid six hours. I used drugs (speed) to get the dopamine more pumping. I even spend money on a streaming servers. After I was done and realized what is was doing I felt like I just wanted to disappear. I am very ashamed of what happened and feel horrible about it.
Later on in the even I went to see DUNE with some friends in the cinema. This character, Mother Superior had a wonderful line that I will remember dearly:
"A man who is being lead by his impulses is nothing more than an animal"
I'm glad I got out of the house and spend some time with my friends.
I don't wanna be an animal anymore.
Day 6. I’m eager to move up a step in my training.
i am watching Jordan Peterson's lectures about personality (2017) on YouTube, and he mentioned something about addiction, that it is one out the sub personalities that you are made of and that it LIVES ! so yes, this part of me expressed itself through a dream (because dreams are a way of your mind to tell yourself strange stories) ! and that must be your case as well !
interesting, yes ! indeed we have the potential to create mental images that help us decide whether or not the impulses are right, which are more important as they are there for evolutionary purposes... but hijacked by addiction.
Day 0 - Youngling
i am wondering if my overall absence of positive feelings is caused by withdrawal... i never was a "people person" so that's a part of it, and now i might only be faced with it, i don't know...
woke up at 5:20AM did my workout, worked well at school, and have eaten great meals so far.
i must stay alert.
Day 117 - Jedi Council Member