day nine padawan i feel the force getting stronger within me, i feel the radiant energy pulse in my being ,
Day 1 here. One thing that I know helps me is exercise. So I will say now that I will commit to exercising after work tonight. And I will try to enjoy it rather than feeling like slogging through it.
So I got to 5 days with out masturbation then I had dispersonastion or however you spell it. Basically I lost my grasp on reality to some extent. Like everything looked artificial and that scared the shit out of me. So I fell off the wagon then I had severe ptsd symptoms. I'm not sure if the ptsd symptoms were related to NoFap cause I was having symptoms before hand. That was actually the reason why I started this. I kind of think going back to porn is what got the ptsd going so I'm gonna try it again. My streak just started at 4 am and I've learned how to meditate better and got a very good app for it. I've also found other good coping mechanisms and am listening to every book I can find on porn addiction. I'm proud of making it five days that was like a experiment if my mind goes all wacky this time I'm just gonna try to stick with it. Any way 0 days starting now.
day 54 tired after a good day of work... can't wait to dye my hair this weekend ! may the Force be with you.
Day 6 . Remind me of more reasons to continue this journey pals. My longest streak is of 60 days and I havent been there in a while.
day 55 the reasons must be yours. to increase your own will power to have control over your dirty thoughts to have more time to be more present for your relatives ...and so on
Day 3. It's hard to believe in the beginning of this journey but the more you try the less of a hold PMO has a hold on you.
So I have 2 days. I shifted my goals I see people on here with long streaks of PMO and I don't think that's for me. But I'm completely sick of porn and if I never look at it for the rest of my life that will be fine. So I'm gonna swear off porn but still masturbate. It takes a couple days to work up enough tension to be able to do that anyway cause of my addiction but I hope that will get easier. Sorry if I'm writting to much in here.
Day 0 relapse. I think a very essential thing I'm missing is having a meaningful job. I work at a gas station and hate it. I want to get a trade and covid through all that up in the air. I was having a lot of anxiety about that but I'm going to apply to my local trades colleges now. I think that if I can get that important piece of the puzzle in place for myself then it will be easier to end my PMO addiction. Meaningful and gratifying work I think will allow me to channel my mental energies in a better direction.
