The Jedi Temple (open)

Check
1) 1/3
2) 2/3

Status of the mision
2/3​

-Yes is a holocron , maybe there is in their old vault.

* After fighting the last sith of the temple with some traps on their way, the three jedis enter on an old vault many meters down of the sith pyramid.*

-There ! the holocron.

 

Day 20

Do you want to have more connection? Up your streak and do some self improvement work along way. Make your days count as best as possible if you can.
Maybe I will write more. Nothing much but my body is healing again from colds. That's all.

Fighting Vader in the caves or is it.

The darkside is strong. Always there.

Keep training

 

My streak numbers are very interesting but also completely honest. The progression through this journey as been up and down as I try different techniques and or tools to help me overcome this. You only learn about your problem when you have setbacks. Why did I do this? What were my triggers and so forth. Porn was never really the problem but a way to self medicated myself through my problems. Having to figure out how to deal with my problems in a healthy way has been the biggest challenge but also the most important. If you track my numbers carefully you will start to see patterns. Most of my setbacks were divisible by 7 if you look closely. Why? Because weekends are the biggest issue with me.

 

Day 242, 243, 244, 245, 246 and 247. Checking in.

 

@Luxor you're right , i forget the pmo is just a "fake medicine" to avoid the real problems, so maybe that why fapstronauts with long streak falls again sometimes, because they didn't solve the real situation, well that's what i suggest.
Thanks for share the experience.

 

Day 3 ✅

 

Day 6. I feel calmer after relapsing only once in the past 2 weeks. I know that as a fact that that is the case, but it always feels a surprise when I feel that calm. I just feel at ease in my body, relaxed and sure of what I'm doing. When I relapse day after day, it's like I'm just a bundle of nerves.

I'm still on a Blade Runner 2049 grind. Other than school, it's all I can put my attention onto. Why does it draw me in so much? It reflects to me how I feel that my own life is fake, especially my porn addiction. It doesn't matter how nice and comforting that girl on the screen feels to me. She's not actually there for me. I can't make her happy. We can't feel the connection between our fingers, and other parts of our bodies. And that's what's I really want. I want to feel connected deeply to a woman that I love. It would be really sad if I continued my pmo addiction, and not seek out a connection with a real woman.

 

Day 25 checking in!

New record!

Only 5 days to reach the month and 8 days to beat NNN.

Status Mision: Day 02/03

The holocron.

I decide to keep an eye on the surroundings, prepared for any surprise attack.

 

day 11✅
personal mission 1/3


is in front of us but it can be a trap. the holocron could be a weapon against the jedi and the whole galaxy this cant fall in the wrong hands i say we destroy the hole place.

 

Check
1) 1/3
2) 3/3

Status of the mission
3/3
Final chapter
*The three jedis still discuss what to do in the dark vault where just the red holocron was the only light for them.*
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-Agree, i asume those sith we meet recently were the last keepers of this holocron, maybe they use his knowledge and evolve on power because of this one.

 

Day 21

Oh I see, I can see it the smaller ones on the weekend. Hmm. It made sense you said you using whatever tools to aid you on your journey. I hope not to rely on it as much. Be careful because one day it may work against you. So far you doing a fantastic job. This is for everyone, using multiple blockers shows to me that your not really ready or healed from it. I'm only using one "blocker" which is on my Google search called "Safesearch" for images which is saving me for now. I guess you can say deactivating my Twitter is considered a unintentional blocker as well. I hope I don't need to use it for long term. I don't know, I want the confidence without using it later. Here is another thing, I will share someone relapse from another challenge of mine. Lo and behold, his P blocker was not working that day and malfunction just that day then resulted on a relapse. Someone also added from the LOTR challenge (when I was in it) a previous conversation have said, one day his blocker/blockers malfunctioned and boom full blown PMO was the end result. If that is you, you have that issue to work out. Like I have said in my journal, once you have access to internet 100% it is game over for you. You only have for so long until it gets you no matter what streak it is. Being alone is not really the issue for me but for most people it is. Me is just peeking issues here and there nothing too big. Always getting better though. I think we might have a similar issues when you have said I almost slip because of this site. Probably most likely social media sites? For me, that can be the case with Twitter (deactivated atm) and maybe for Instagram as of recent. Again, IG hasn't really been much of an issue but I almost slip at Day 8. So I am considering deactivating it for a week to a month to see how my progress is here. Most of time it is not an issue besides Day 8 I have mentioned.

So far in my mind about my streak is 28, 20, 27, and now this current one. Whichever this may be. I think this will be the one. However of course not to be let my guard down. If I was like Luxor with those short number of streak I might take a break for a while or so. A week break or so. Because that is frustrating breaking it within a week or every 7 - 20 days. Seeing the patterns is helpful as well. As someone would say using your phone is "autopilot". Not my issue but for some of you yes. For me, 20 days is ok but still it is not enough IMO. Well, if it was 60 months. Still the same feeling but a bit satisfied. Just need to push further. Onward to beating my no PMO & SR/NoFap streak. Let's go Jedis.

Yoda: Use the force. Concentrate!
Second gif, Yoda fell too.

Fell because the X-Wing is sinking...

Many quotes and my response is exactly.

It's only 20+ days! No! No different! You must unlearn what you have learned.
We must learn from the Wise at times during our training.

Not my Luke Skywalker?
https://youtube.com/shorts/27-XWIvgcVA?feature=share

Keep training

 

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Day 4 ✅

 

Day 7. I waited to post today because I was having some pretty bad urges. I didn't know which way I would go. Not knowing. That's the worst and creates a lot of anxiety for me. When I decide to relapse, all the anxiety pfft gone. The certainty of what I'm doing creates that calm, whichever way I go. The certainty can be made by deciding to do something else. I'm going to watch a movie, calm down, and then practice guitar for a bit.

I was talking to a woman friend. Asking her how I can get a girlfriend. She's very kind and supportive. A mother too. She said that girls like guys that are interesting. Guys who have skills and are interesting to talk to. Be someone that your girlfriend will have an exciting life with. Well then I will keep developing myself, and not get lost in feeling sad and doing nothing about it. I was feeling horrible the past couple of days. And a part of that is that I did nothing with my time to feel good about myself. The pain was all consuming. I don't know how I haven't relapsed by now.

 

It's been a while but I'm back now.

 

day 12✅
personal mission 1/3

 

Status of the mission
3/3 complete


After blow up the temple, the three jedis
return to give the informs of the mission
to the council.

Congrats!!!
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Day 22

JEDI KNIGHT, ah I think saw that somewhere too. Nice one!
There was something I was wanted to say from last post. I forget, I'll leave at that for now.

Activating my Twitter again recently because I wanted to see the NoFap twitter account on certain posts. I want to bookmark one my favorites. Posts I wanted to post here. Well this one will do for now.

Essentially, what one of the fellow Jedis keeps mentioning. And yes I am completely aware it is fake (PMO). I always came to a realization to it since coming back here in the forums and way before that. No need to repeat it to myself.
https://twitter.com/NoFap/status/1586398549386067968?s=20&t=6WtDxPKYnBdiVNrWAC-RLg

The more spiritual and more higher streak I get. The more is the opposite for the "need" for a significant other. Not that I don't desire it because I am always open to it. Of course, there is a strong desire. Just saying when I get more spiritually strong then for some reasons it becomes the opposite for me. The fellow Jedi keeps mentioning it and it is reminds of another people who keeps empathizing it. If you keep thinking about women, that can lead to your downfall. Because of this, then now the question will I PMO because I am lonely & horny? Hmm no, you better say no. Most of the time, I am alone. Dealing with it like a Jedi.

Here comes my spiritual side lol. Still wasn't the reasons that got me into Star Wars but this is one of the favorites in The Original Trilogy.

Yoda: Luminous being are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the force around you.

Keep Training