The Jedi Temple (open)

Ditto! mate.

 

Day 12

 

I mean the very word "relapse" implies that you lose control and give in, yet you have no control over your wet dreams, so you can't lose something you don't have. Maybe it could be called a "reset", I could see that.
But personally I don't think it warrants the reset of your streak either. Because SR for me is a practice, not an accident. Just because one forgets to MO for a week, cause they were very busy at work, doesn't mean they are practicing SR. The same way just because one was forced to release by the body, does not mean they are not practicing SR. To me SR is a conscious practice one chooses.
That's my reasoning anyways, but this one is highly subjective, different people will see it in different ways. I don't think there is one right answer for this one, unlike there definitely is for Hard Mode.
And by the way, that's why I think counting day streaks are kind of silly for SR practitioners. It makes sense for addicts who are trying to abstain, but not for SR, because it's supposed to be a lifestyle. I mean do you think celibate Yogis who practice Brahmacharia count their streaks on the internet forums lol? I don't think so, they just practice it.

Ya nam sayin'?

 

Day 374, 375, 376, 377, 378, 379 and 380. Checking in.

 

It's so pleasurable to be exercising, eating well and succeeding in life...I want this so badly and I want it more than I want porn, so much more...so I will succeed and have the inner determination to stay on the path of PMO. Thanks for responding

 

I agree with everything you say. It is all about the healing and being free of PMO heals the mind and body in so many ways. Thanks for taking the time to respond

 

Day 80 - Jedi Master

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Tech: When do we ever follow orders.

Ūruz, they practice it (SR) without counting because there is a no P rule involved. Live it without counting days. You can say the same with Hard Mode except there is more pressure because you cannot engage either P or M at all during Hard Mode. SR you can do either one but it depends on what other goals you are adding. Hard mode it makes a difference if you engaged and look at P or do M then that is automatic reset with intentional reason. So of course, we have to count on Hard Mode opposed to SR lol. I count because it keeps me accountable instead of me getting a certain number of days. I have feeling if I stop counting then I will start slacking off and turn it into full relapse after doing a certain number of days on my streak. So counting is a must especially daily on the beginning I believe. Yes, I know what your saying doggy. Ya dig son. I'll leave it at that.

Reflection, I am starting to think otherwise about No PM is considered to be Hard Mode since in the NoFap e-book says otherwise as I said in previous posts here. It's standard mode to in my eyes. Not Hard Mode but I will not say anything if someone practicing it on Hard Mode because it is allowed for the most part.

I might think about quitting Hard Mode later if I said it here but not now. I want to reach all my goals here on Hard Mode along with SR/NoFap streak as best as I can. I know for the most part, people will be assuming crap about me because they would probably think I'm looking at P all day every day long once I hop back on Semen retention. Try doing that on SR and let's see how long you will last. Because to me from experience it is the same mindset as Hard Mode. Except with the difference with the rules obviously.

Shared this video on my journal. The video is ok but still the message of it is important one.

Spoiler: TRIGGER WARNING: Because of the Thumbnail

Too much rambling for me. That's it.

One day this is me. Force Ghost Master.

Fight the dark side

Keep Training

 

Good. One thing that One Piece and many other anime get right is that freedom is attained through your own personal struggle and not from the government or anyone else.



You're struggling and having a hard time? Good. Good. The law of nature is such that it rewards people who go through hard challenges with strength and wisdom. It's only in the modern era that this law of nature isn't entirely obvious because we're surrounded by convenience and comfort. In the past we had no choice but to be challenged by nature for our mere survival. We had no time to worry about our self worth, or if we were capable or not of survival. We just had to act. If you start wishing for an easier life with less challenge, then nature will punish you for being weak. Overcoming the challenges in life means that nature will reward you.

 

Counting the days thing I think is probably different for everyone. When I started nofap I was really focused on the days and it sapped my concentration from what I should be actually doing in the day. For other guys it helps. I like the day counter so I don't have to worry about it, and I can look at it every now and then to see how far I've come.

 

Day 12 check in. I was in the gym yesterday for 2 hours doing a HIIT workout. It was pretty intense for my level of fitness. Watching motivation videos while working out seemed to help to pump me up. And I had a much better sleep finally last night. I recently found out that getting bad sleep actually lowers your testosterone levels. Among many other habits that affect your testosterone like diet and exercise. I'm assuming that having a higher testosterone will help to get over pmo addiction, and having a lower testosterone will make it harder.

 

Fair enough.

To be honest that's exactly what I assumed last time I've read you saying that you gonna go off of Hard Mode and get on semen retention...

I'm confused now, so you don't allow porn on SR? That's good. But what is the difference from Hard Mode for you then? Do you allow M without O? Edging? What is the distinction for you? I'm confused.

If you are not trying to trigger anyone then why the fuck are you posting triggering thumbnail like this? If you gonna post borderline soft-core pornography images here at least use the [/SPOILER] tag and write trigger warning! Just cause you say, "forget about the thumbnail image" doesn't make it magically invisible. Edit your post...

 

Day 37 - Jedi Knight

 

Check in day 31 - Jedi Knight

 

Congratulations on reaching Knight status.

 

Hard Mode for me is the more pressure of I can't look at P at all because it is reset. For me, it is opposite to being on SR because there is no pressure on "you can't look at P". You probably forgot what I said when I came back here doing this current Hard Mode streak. It depends on your value systems. For myself, I won't allow myself to M or edge. P, M, and edging is allowed on SR. Unless you add anything on that goal. I'm not doing M and edging regardless on Hard Mode or SR. It is not part of my belief system if I do that then I always turn it into full relapse any way. Just for P is something that I won't reset if I do slip if it does happen with peeking or if you decided to watch intentionally/unintentionally. Technically unintentionally wouldn't count if you were at either Hard Mode or SR. I don't think you seen my previous post but I never M or edge alone in previous post. Don't get me started with Ming/MOing/edging alone. Huge rant/rambling from me.

Regardless, did you not watch the video I shared? I'm assuming you didn't. Being all upset about it. It's all about the message on what I was trying to say. Exactly, how I will treat an SR/NoFap streak.

Yes sure, I will soon edit the thumbnail after this post. Sorry about that and I guess it won't disappear then. But calm the F down dude with your words bro. You get upset about this but when others say triggering things it doesn't bother you. I don't get some people. I'm not like that. You didn't mind that one post from another challenge but now you got issues. And this is how is you get Uruz to come out and get him to talk out of his simple check ins. Start a discussion here.

Lastly, yes I will quit sooner or later because the simplest rules on P-subs/P. The whole argument which is which. I will try to hit my goals here on Hard Mode first as best as I can. so long as I don't relapse. It doesn't seem like it right now. I am doing what I have to do. The rules of which is classified is which as P/P-subs. This is upsetting and pissing me off from time to time. I still have obligations here to finish one of my challenges and that is why I am still here. They say that is a reset such and such. I'm getting tired from this crap time to time. Again, I know I can do this whether it's on Hard Mode or Semen Retention/NoFap with or without people. Maybe not with people or a lot of people because I don't hang with a lot of people especially with real addicts here. No sir. This was just eye opening being here coming back. I'm good with a few people in challenges.

But maybe there is a reason why I am still here in these forums. Hmm Possibly wonder why I am here. Well I guess I'm going to run this race as long as I can here on Hard Mode. SR/NoFap is most likely all by myself or maybe come to the other few challenges that cater or allow it there. Because there aren't many challenges that cater to that type of NoFap goal (SR).

Any way, I know I can do it. Support from others is great but if I have none so be it. I'm not letting anyone tell me otherwise.
Just like David Goggins, do it all in my own if I have to.

 

Indeed, it is.

 

Day 13

 

I don't believe that I remember reading you previous post, but yes, what you say makes sense. The pressure to not watch can sometimes work kind of like backwards psychology for people, where the more pressure there is the more they think about it and want it; that's not me, but I get that some might feel that way. And also the reset; if one is obligated to reset the streak due to small slip up, then that often leads to a full binge, cause one thinks, "well I already reset the streak, might as well enjoy myself, nothing to lose", that happened to me in the past. So I get how your method would make sense.

No, I did not watched the video. And I am not upset, I am angry. I am not angry about the video, I was not talking about the video, I was talking about the thumbnail of the video—it is literary soft–core porn!

Don't be condescending to me now. I am entitled to be angry, because when I come to these forums I don't expect soft–core porn to be randomly shoved in my face...
And yes, I am calling that video thumbnail soft–core porn! Let's look at the official definition of porn according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary:

That is exactly what that video thumbnail picture is, it is a sexual imagery intended to cause sexual excitement. I mean it's a woman, that is barely clothed, with lots of skin showing, in underwear, with exaggeratedly large breasts, all wet, sitting in a sexual pose with sexual smirk and legs spread! So you can't tell me that picture is not made without erotic intent! It is not just my subjective opinion; it is literary, objectively speaking, a soft-core pornography!

I am not saying you posted pornography on a porn addicts recovery website intentionally, maybe you just had a dumb brain fart and did it without thinking, fair enough. But you don't get to say:

Followed by:

When you make a mistake like that! Like you were not the one who fucked up and I am somehow as crazy person for calling you out for linking to porn image...
Next time you link to random stuff think about whats in there.

I don't know what other posts you are talking about, maybe I did not read them (like I said, I am a "challenge psycho"—currently doing almost 30 of them at once—so I can't be bothered to read every single check in post in all of them) or maybe I thought they did not contain porn, but that's irrelevant—I am not talking about some other posts, I am talking about yours, the one that I actually saw.

Just because other people post triggering crap does not justify you doing it too. Usually when I see something that brakes the rules of the forum I either call it out or report it, I recommend you to do the same. I can't read every post on this forum, but if you find that somebody here is posting porn, like you just did, intentionally or not, or psubs, then I recommend to call them out and ask them to remove it or put it in a spoiler tag with the trigger warning. Or if you do not want to engage you could just report the post and/or PM an inbox message to one of the Mods and have them deal with that. But don't just let people post triggering shit like soft-core porn or psubs here if you see it...

There is a part of the forum rules:

You can read them in full here: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...osting-rules-and-etiquette-guidelines.121256/

You have found a system exploit, congrats!

 

Day 111!

 

Sleep is still an issue. I guess I have intermittent insomnia but I'm not sure what more I can do about it. I've been killing myself at the gym, stopped drinking alcohol, take cold showers sometimes twice a day, and I take melatonin before bed. All of that is supposed to help with sleep. Maybe it just needs more time to take effect. If there's any consolation I don't feel as tired compared to if I wasn't doing all of these good habits, including nofap. Having insomnia and not doing any of those good habits feels like hell.

I sort of rolled into doing nofap again without a plan, and periodically add a good habit to my daily routine. A problem I had before when doing nofap was that I felt very pressured to do everything all at once with radically changing my lifestyle, and in a way it ends up being a cause for relapse with the pressure. Now I just started going back to the gym because I felt like it, and I don't feel pressure about it. I'm not playing so much video games and I've been reading a little bit more. I think not drinking is a big one. It started as feeling nice to have a drink at the end of the day. But it's a slippery slope where it turned into drinking in the day, and a lot, and rather than having those pleasurable feelings I can remember when I started drinking I just end up feeling depressed after doing it for a few years. You don't get the hit like you used to, and it turns into a negative hit. Well with the drinking gone I feel more conscious of my mind. I think that I drank to avoid thinking my thoughts. It also made me avoid living life. I forgot how to enjoy life.

I used to like watching anime and I decided to rewatch One Piece after a decade when I started it. That is much better than drinking to spend my time, and reading a book now and then.