PeasantZilla
New Fapstronaut
So lets start from the beginning. I am
currently 16 and I started masturbating when I was 9 (I hit puberty less than a month before my 9th birthday). It started when I stumbled across porn surfing the web, doing innocent 9 year old things.
However, By the time I was 13, I realized that what I was doing was terrible for me. However, 3 years later yet I still do it. In all that time the longest I lasted w/o porn was 2 weeks. I have finally realized that I need some form of support to get past this for real and forever, and so I turned here.
Because of the nature of the porn I watch and how I “get a load off” (I WILL NOT SPECIFY SO DON’T ASK), I feel much more guilty than the average person would, and always have anxiety over getting caught, as much as 3 days after at times. It prevents me from focusing on school, has contributed to my minor depression, and has prevented me from becoming a healthy individual.
It was my new years resolution to finally quit porn, that way I finally can focus on other tasks: School, proper nutrition, actually going outside, exercising more than 0 days a week.
Wish me luck. I am playing hard mode and I don’t intend to reset for at least 5 years. (and when I do reset, I will ensure it is not to porn)
currently 16 and I started masturbating when I was 9 (I hit puberty less than a month before my 9th birthday). It started when I stumbled across porn surfing the web, doing innocent 9 year old things.
However, By the time I was 13, I realized that what I was doing was terrible for me. However, 3 years later yet I still do it. In all that time the longest I lasted w/o porn was 2 weeks. I have finally realized that I need some form of support to get past this for real and forever, and so I turned here.
Because of the nature of the porn I watch and how I “get a load off” (I WILL NOT SPECIFY SO DON’T ASK), I feel much more guilty than the average person would, and always have anxiety over getting caught, as much as 3 days after at times. It prevents me from focusing on school, has contributed to my minor depression, and has prevented me from becoming a healthy individual.
It was my new years resolution to finally quit porn, that way I finally can focus on other tasks: School, proper nutrition, actually going outside, exercising more than 0 days a week.
Wish me luck. I am playing hard mode and I don’t intend to reset for at least 5 years. (and when I do reset, I will ensure it is not to porn)
