The Prisoner-335698
Fapstronaut
Hello there,
I've heard of the nofap community for quite a while now but despite my best efforts i just can't reboot on my own : the best i can do is 10 days without PMO, although recently my streaks didn't go beyond 1 or 2 days... and i've got to admit i really feel like a loser.
My failures led me here, i need good pieces of advice so feel free to comment and share your wisdom with me.
To help you understand who i am and how i got into this quagmire let me tell you my story.
I began fapping to porn on a regular basis at age 14 (it was in 2013, i'm 21 now), even though i was quite handsome at the time i didn't have opportunities to meet girls and flirt thus i turned to porn to receive that special kind of affection.
I used to fap 2 to 3 times a week at that time
Things remained this way up until december 2016 : i fell in love with a girl in my class (spoiler alert: she didn't give a shit about me). I wanted to improve, at that time i managed to limit myself to once or twice a week with Some streaks reaching 10 to 15 days !
It's in march 2017 that i took the habit of running regularly, i had seen her with another guy and they weren't "just friends" i was fuming, running was basically a mean to evacuate my anger. (I still run on a regular basis but it's not as often motivated by anger as it used to)
In march 2018 i told my crush that i had a crush on her... she rejected me. I was disappointed, angry, sad etc...
I began fapping 2 to 3 times a week, and i was beginning to worry about not finding someone who would love me.
A few days after i celebrated my 19th birthday i entered college in september 2018, my fapping habits weren't a liability at first, i scored good results on my first semester, it's during the second semester that things went haywire. Winter was taking its toll on me, i was still unable to find a girlfriend and my classmates were all assholes. Frustration after frustration i turned to PMO more and more for comfort : i believe it's what made me fail my second semester.
I reached rock bottom during the summer 2019, i hated myself for failing this semester, i was alone, i had no friend so i turned to the only thing i knew could give me comfort : PMO at least 4 times a week.
Things got better when i started working a summer job on august. i struggled quite a lot with my addiction (very violent urges i had to resist) but i managed to keep it at bay.
On september 2019 i went to a new college in another city, despite the lockdown i was successful on both the 1st and 2nd semester graduating top of my class, during this time my fapping habit was about 2 to 3 times a week with a few streaks of 6 to 12 days here and there.
Okay that's it about my life story, not much has happened during this 2020 summer, one matter on which i could use your opinion guys is dating. I'm beginning to obsess with it, i've never had a girlfriend. How do you guys know a girl is into you ? When do you know you can kiss her ?
I believe i might have had opportunities that i missed during my 2 years in college.
Just so i'm clear i believe my PMO problem is responsible for my very disappointing dating life so i could use advice on not relapsing first and then dating in second.
I would like to thank you guys in advance and i wish you a lot of success in your own personal journeys.
One day, we shall be free !
I've heard of the nofap community for quite a while now but despite my best efforts i just can't reboot on my own : the best i can do is 10 days without PMO, although recently my streaks didn't go beyond 1 or 2 days... and i've got to admit i really feel like a loser.
My failures led me here, i need good pieces of advice so feel free to comment and share your wisdom with me.
To help you understand who i am and how i got into this quagmire let me tell you my story.
I began fapping to porn on a regular basis at age 14 (it was in 2013, i'm 21 now), even though i was quite handsome at the time i didn't have opportunities to meet girls and flirt thus i turned to porn to receive that special kind of affection.
I used to fap 2 to 3 times a week at that time
Things remained this way up until december 2016 : i fell in love with a girl in my class (spoiler alert: she didn't give a shit about me). I wanted to improve, at that time i managed to limit myself to once or twice a week with Some streaks reaching 10 to 15 days !
It's in march 2017 that i took the habit of running regularly, i had seen her with another guy and they weren't "just friends" i was fuming, running was basically a mean to evacuate my anger. (I still run on a regular basis but it's not as often motivated by anger as it used to)
In march 2018 i told my crush that i had a crush on her... she rejected me. I was disappointed, angry, sad etc...
I began fapping 2 to 3 times a week, and i was beginning to worry about not finding someone who would love me.
A few days after i celebrated my 19th birthday i entered college in september 2018, my fapping habits weren't a liability at first, i scored good results on my first semester, it's during the second semester that things went haywire. Winter was taking its toll on me, i was still unable to find a girlfriend and my classmates were all assholes. Frustration after frustration i turned to PMO more and more for comfort : i believe it's what made me fail my second semester.
I reached rock bottom during the summer 2019, i hated myself for failing this semester, i was alone, i had no friend so i turned to the only thing i knew could give me comfort : PMO at least 4 times a week.
Things got better when i started working a summer job on august. i struggled quite a lot with my addiction (very violent urges i had to resist) but i managed to keep it at bay.
On september 2019 i went to a new college in another city, despite the lockdown i was successful on both the 1st and 2nd semester graduating top of my class, during this time my fapping habit was about 2 to 3 times a week with a few streaks of 6 to 12 days here and there.
Okay that's it about my life story, not much has happened during this 2020 summer, one matter on which i could use your opinion guys is dating. I'm beginning to obsess with it, i've never had a girlfriend. How do you guys know a girl is into you ? When do you know you can kiss her ?
I believe i might have had opportunities that i missed during my 2 years in college.
Just so i'm clear i believe my PMO problem is responsible for my very disappointing dating life so i could use advice on not relapsing first and then dating in second.
I would like to thank you guys in advance and i wish you a lot of success in your own personal journeys.
One day, we shall be free !
