I'd like to stay anonymous on this site as much as possible, while sharing my experience as openly as possible. So to do that I'll start out by saying one day I wondered, as I was staring into the wall in my room with not a glimmer of emotion or motivation, why I went from being a prominent athlete and scholar up until my 8th grade year. I began failing grades and losing interest in sports until I eventually quit sports altogether in sophomore year. I stopped wanting to have relationships with girls and I was tired, sad, and apathetic all the time. This wasn't who I always up, so I googled the symptoms. Then it dawned on me while I was scouring the Internet; what could my daily routine of pmo be doing to me physically and mentally? Then I found this website and many others. I have tried to quit many times before but after a week my head would start to spin (literally, I felt dizzy) and I would give in. Then it would spiral down into binging and making matters worse. Then I was back, staring at the wall, as a junior in high school with not future ahead of him, thinking, "Is this it?" I was so sick of life I just wanted it to be over with. But after reading the stories and success here, I decided that it won't be it. It's the last straw and it's time to take my life back.