People ask how you feel. What changed? What super powers do you have? What’s different? So many questions when you reach the 90 day mark, but I thought it was important to share this change for me. A little change goes a long way. Or big changes give little surprises. My change is how I view and show love to women. This was very confusing feeling to me almost alien, because it’s the first time in my adult life that I’ve been able to feel this way towards a women. I know that my brain is healing from this addiction, because I believe I wouldn’t honestly be able to feel this way if I was still engaged in my addiction. So what’s the change? In the past I used to love/lust women. I believe that love has a spectrum, and that’s where I was. This is all I’ve known, and I would see women and "want" them physically. I know I can love, but it’s not that deep love. I've been in love with this women I’ve been dating for the past 2 months, and I felt confused about my feelings. I knew I loved her but I didn’t realize what type of love it was, until now. This is a love/friendship/equal-ship and let me explain. I am attracted to her physically, but that’s not the driving force. The physical takes a back seat, it’s like a 2nd thought. When I see this women, I see an amazing person who is intelligent, artistic, funny, compassionate, trusting, and so much more. All I want from this women is to know her, to understand her, to be with her. It’s like she’s becoming my best friend, and who doesn’t want to fall in love with their best friend? I know that I want more in life and I feel that this is the result of me not indulging in my addiction. I can see women as equals, as people and no longer lust after them. To me, this is true success. This gives me that extra motivation to continue to stay strong against my addiction.