I remember being in bed with my wife and really hating it. Wishing that she could get off me, although I love her. But she wasn't doing the things I saw in Porn, so it felt dumb. Sometimes I wished, she could go out so I can watch Porn undisturbed. Despite having the beautiful woman, that I love, right next to me, I craved for some imaginary. From today's perspective, after almost 50 days of NoFap, I don't even understand how this thought process is even possible. It would have destroyed my marriage in the long run for sure. Did this happen to you? I am so happy I started NoFap despite the fact that I didn't really believe I had a problem. My wife deserves the best man I can possibly be.