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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
This time I'll make it to the 90
Day 3 completed
Day 239 no PMO.
On the verge of a relapse. I’m afraid this would be my last day…
Yesterday all I did was fish. And today I feel even worse.
The stress level in my life is reaching a crescendo.
Yesterday was my girlfriend’s first day of school in her Master’s degree (the reason we even moved to Berlin) and she was so stressed out that I was also completely stressed out. But even after she went to the Uni, I just felt “off”. I’m not sure if it a saying in English, but in Hebrew there is a term “Voltage Drop” that refers to the feeling you get after you’ve been stressed out for so long that the moment that you reach some threshold you just collapse. It’s been months that we have both been on edge waiting for her to start school, and all this time I just took care of her and put her first and now that I need to get back and take care of myself I just broke down.
All I did yesterday was trying to distract myself so I wouldn’t have to think to hard. I watched a lot of stand up and nice things like that, but at some point, I wanted to watch a movie and the first thing on Netflix was the wolf of Wall Street and my dumbass pushed play on the most triggering movie ever.
And to top it off, I’ve gotten a job interview tomorrow after not having a job for two years. And I’m just so stressed about it. And shit I am not handling everything great. I need to study to pass this interview so I can’t just walk away from my computer for that day… I have to find a way to both be productive and to not break and relapse.
Seriously, any suggestions or advice would be great.
Thank you all.
472 days high king
541 days no PMO, semen retention
Day 7 monk mode journey.
Checking in Fellowship . unfortunatelly i have fallen, the pressure of the last days was too much and i collapse due to it.
bad insomnia night, get up from bed like 5 times, super horny, and at 5 am i collapse. still lot´s of good stuff happened and i learn a lot. i notice that the planning of the day can´t be too tight, it must a bit loose to not create unnecessary pressure. my fishing of the last 3 days was based on discontent because of too much tasks, only last night i realize that.
so, if you feel pressure it´s better to loose a bit and have some rest time. listen to your body, that´s my advice.
anyway, i made proper changes in my day planning from now on .
plus, on this streak i reached 90 days in hard mode (no sex) which was an old milestone of mine. something that Universal Man recommends that everyone should go through, so this goal was conquered
step by step brothers, we´ll get there .
Sorry for the relapse, i didn´t see this bump on the road.
That's unfortunate timing. But what can you do... Go on. I don't take my words back. You did a good job! 90 days hard modes is something.
Day 2 for me. Last night wasn’t too bad, although when I laid down to sleep my brain immediately went to the thought of MOing before I remembered that I’m trying not to do that. YouTube has been harder to kick, I wanted to listen to podcasts/videos all day yesterday at work. I left my headphones at home today so that I can’t be tempted. Meeting with a friend for dinner tonight, should be fun.
Make strategies to reduce the levels of stress:
-Paint a Mandala
-Take deep breath as we say here
-Remember the urges are temporary, they will pass
And say to urges go away , nice try but i will not fall on that option, i'm a hobbit!, i worked hard to reach here.
My dream of getting to Christmas with a 90 day streak has come to an end. I relapsed after my highest streak.
My goal now is to enter Chirstmas with a 60 day streak.
Day 3. Walking on the path of reboot
That's a shame, but after such a long streak I don't think you hurt yourself much. Just go on with life and keep the tracker going. I hope you make it to KING or further this time!
Day 2 fellowship!
Day 1 - Relapsed
I don't want to seem like I'm making excuses but I was very, very anxious today because I planned to meet a girl today, and we scheduled a specific time to meet and hang out so the build up was getting worse and worse and worse. I went out for a walk, worked out, showered, etc etc, the anxiety just kept coming back and then all of this anxiety caused the urge (since I used to PMO to manage my emotions and deal with things like stress, anxiety, etc). I would like to think this is another very specific and unique situation for my relapse and I knew that once I met and hung out with her I'd realise I had nothing to worry about but the anxiety and nervousness got way too overwhelming.
I just have to pick myself back up and keep going. Now that I know things are fine because everything went great after meeting up with her I should be back to my usual self.
Time to beat my record again!
Not to worry bro, you've made it to 90 days several times so you are experienced and know what to do. Back to basics I guess
Checking in. I'm slacking on my routines a lot and I'm just going with the flow. I realise it's a dangerous thing, but I'll try to come back.