The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 249 no PMO. Yesterday was a good day overall. Only problem was right before bed I saw some thumbnails on YouTube that were a bit triggering for me. I didn’t click on any and it was no big deal but while I was asleep I had a dream that I had clicked them and then my wife walked in and wanted to see my phone. Again… this was all a dream but it seamed so real. Anyway… my daughter then proceeded to get upset with me and stick sharp objects in and around my private parts. I woke up with an erection and in actual pain as if the dream had been true. So disturbing. Anyway I eventually realized it was a dream and calmed myself back down. Rough night. Hope you guys had better sleep than me. Have a great day!

 

Day 8 completed, Uruk once more!

 

Day 105

 

482 days high king
551 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Water fast
Day 4/7

I went to bed yesterday at 6pm it looks my body needed to recover because I only slept 2hrs also it's past half day 4 of water fast so extra energy from sleep is not bad.

I had sex two days ago which gave me extra energy as sex always does. But now I only feel normal I think is the fast it has taken the extra energy from sex in a faster paste, usually this extra sex energy last 4 or 5 days at top level then it fades a bit in the 7 days margin. It can give me sexual balance and no need for sex for 1 to 2 months then after that it fades a bit and it is still in me until 90 days.

Right now starting the day I have doubts if I should go out to work out. It can take some energy from me. I'll study right now and see how I feel in an hour or so.

I don't feel or have desire to eat. I think I continue the fast until my body ask me for food. I feel the brain is somehow making a cleaning process of some type and the body specially the stomach is cleaning itself up. I lost 1cm on my waist
Body muscle almost the same it has helped I work out calisthenics and running somehow in a strong fashion during the fast.

In terms of my mind it's like I have little thoughts, emotions or reactions to phenomena. It's a great mindstate it's like my body and mind know I have little energy and they don't want to spend it thinking also it becomes more subtle and less concern in trivial business because not eating is almost like giving up life and if you give up on life you give up on everything in this world, fasting is a great tool to gain depth in spiritual endevours and deep philosophical thinking.

 

Checking in. Minor urges, but getting there. Looking forward to a clean weekend.

 

Day 9 - Uruk Hai

Had some brief urges right before bed yesterday, but they passed quickly. Not too much going on. My work project is still stuck because of IT issues. I did eat way too much for dinner last night. I tend to skip breakfast, eat a light lunch, and then have a larger dinner. I just kinda went overboard. Part of it is I bought guacamole from the store this past weekend, which I don’t normally buy. I didn’t want it to go to waste, so I ate a bunch of it with cucumber slices in addition to my meal. The meal on its own wouldn’t have been too much, I just added in snacking. I lost 75 lbs last year, mostly through diet, and I learned that I can’t buy snacky stuff since I will just eat all of it quickly rather than portion it out. Even with something relatively healthy like guacamole and cucumbers, it can be a lot if I don’t pace myself. I think I’ll avoid snacking for now, I’ve been at my target weight for a while, and I’m wanting to experiment with adding things back into my diet. Let myself watch way too much YouTube last night also, but that’s ok. Quitting PMO is my first priority, I can only do so much at once. Hope y’all have a good day. God bless.

 

Good day, day two

 

Day 12 on my path of reboot

 

Well, I have one day again not m or watching psubs.

 

Day 87

 

Day 1 - Orc

I went out with some friends and watched Dune.

 

Day 3

Pretty good day, though a bit more scattered than I would have like. I got a nice healthy meal and a cold shower in at least.

 

Day 3

 

Day 4 complete!

I had a close call with some urges slowly accumulating over the afternoon, but I tell you what, cold showers really do the trick. If there's anyone here who doesn't consistently take cold showers yet, you ought to start now.

 

34 days
This time I'll make it to the 90

 

467 days

 

Watched a movie with a friend. Drank a bit and smoked her vape. I don't do those things much anymore.

 

Day 3

I’m starting my new job on Monday. The upside is that it would be my first job in over two years, so I HAD to take it. The downside is that it is going to be a really bad job for both my NoFap journey and my mental health. I’m going to monitor bad content on social media and that means I would see a lot of graphic violence and maybe also porn people upload to social media.

I’m going to quit my job the moment I find a new one, or when I would not be able to take it anymore… I just hope I would find a better job soon.