The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Yes, exercise is key. Not only for those suffering with PAWs, the natural endorphin release from moving is, in my opinion, crucial for human thriving.

You are correct, this is very important. There is a small but still significant correction I will make to your proposal. It is not only irrational beliefs that will surface. The addictive mind is cunning, it will bring forth very strong, perceived rational and logical arguments. It is not always a clear irrational thought, quite the contrary sadly. It is very important to call out that belief as the voice of the addict, expose it for the liar that it is. This will strengthen your resolve. As you mentioned, writing it out will help it stick.

This is a big part of what has lead me this far.

 

Day 4

 

Day 258

 

468 days

 

Day 1. I had a relapse to masturbation late last night. I know one thing I could have done better to save myself, which was breathing exercises and mindfulness, but the physicality of the urge felt so overwhelming and unstoppable that I'm not sure it would have helped. It really doesn't feel like I'm the one masturbating. My body is masturbating and I'm just along for the ride whether I like it or not.

WHY

IS

THIS

SO

DIFFICULT?!

 

35 days
This time I'll make it to the 90

 

Slain by a wraith... Not sure what to say. I'm tired these days.

 

484 days high king
553 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 4

Did my morning meditation. And in the middle of it I just got hit with one frame from one scene I remember, and I can’t shake this picture out of my head. This is madness.

It’s been an hour and a half already and every ten seconds it’s popping up in my head.

That is just stupid. I don’t want to relapse because of one fucking picture.

Sometimes this fight is just shitty. I’ve done hard stuff in my life before. But this is the one thing in my life that truly makes me feel week like a child. There is just no reason for this to be so hard.

 

Fuck

Nazgul again.

That ONE fucking picture I could not get out of my head killed me and took me down.

 

Day 251 no PMO.

 

Completed Day 9 yesterday but masturbated today. Not going to give in though, No Nut November is on!

 

Day 5

 

Day 89!

 

Water fast
6/7
Almost done day 6 and starting day seven.

Good day, it took more effort to do the same activities but I did some running, weights, yoga. Mental clarity is good.

One day to go

 

Day 4 or 5

No cravings, which is good, but just struggling with some laziness and low energy. I guess it happens. I know I'll feel better once I start a task and dig into it.

 

Day 1 - Orc

I hope everyone had a great Halloween! It's my Dad's birthday today so we spent some time hanging out with each other and playing board games with the family which was really nice.

 

Day 14 on my path of reboot.