The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 1 - Orc

I’ve realized that I have a duty to take care of myself. And like, yeah, that sounds obvious, but I mean like a parent has a duty to their child, an older sibling to a younger sibling. When you’re a (good) parent, you understand intuitively that if you fuck around and aren’t responsible, your child doesn’t get fed, doesn’t get clean clothes, doesn’t get quality time. You want so bad for your child to have a good life that you sacrifice huge amounts of time and energy to help them along. Why should I deserve less from myself if I think this is worth it for my future child? Why shouldn’t I make sacrifices of my time and energy for myself? And to be clear, making sacrifices sucks. It’s not fun. It’s incredibly difficult to make the right call over and over. But if I don’t, that “kid” is going to have a shitty life, isn’t he? I have a duty to myself, to both me and my past. My life is worse because of PMO. I need to make sacrifices to change that.

I’ll get off my soapbox now lol. Worked on a DnD character last night, which was a lot of fun, although I had been putting it off to entertain myself mindlessly with Youtube or video games the past several nights. Think I’m going to read more Way of Kings after work today. Also, I’m auditioning for a play with a local civic theatre this weekend! I’m feeling good right now. Hope everyone’s day is good. Peace and love, God bless.

 

Day 11 starting this chanllage!
Im an Uruk!

 

Day 119!

3rd day of cold shower. This time I did it when I woke up, about one minute.

 

Starting now after an unfortunate relapse last night. Nazgûl rank but we all have to start somewhere!

 

Checking in! Prayer,workout, Meditation,nutrition studies and singing psalms!

 

Looking to join the fellowship! I'm on day 7 of being pmo-free.

 

Checking in. All good

 

Day 59

I've thought your message my friend. My instagram account is very clean, I only follow my friends and meme pages. I've never thinked about bedroom fun etc. Basically, I've never done anything to put my progress at risk. However, I watch tv-series from netflix which has some sex scenes in, maybe that kind of things trigger wet dreams, but I believe it's a big maybe.

 

581 days semen retention

 

Escort neighbor
My new neighbor is a high class escort a beautiful read head she is just some days in the country to get plastic surgery, she invited me to her house, I brought some food, chill and we had sex. I didn't pay her.

She is just too beautiful.

I also went on a date with a very beautiful girl after seeing my neighbor. It was one of the best dates I had I think sex gave me a boost so my mind was sharp I talked about very interesting subjects. I'm seeing her today too.

 

3 dates
Today I have three dates with three different girls, I think the energy from my ex is finally off me. I'm more free.

Also 3 days ago I said no to a supermodel looking girl to have sex because I felt her vibe was similar to my ex, in the sense of bad in sex I asked her and she kind of confessed she wasn't very good at sex so meaning bad sex.

After saying no to this girl something happened many girls want to be with me, that I'm not even mentioning. Because if I had sex with this girl it would have been like continuing with the same type of girl my ex is.

 

Welcome bro !It's like a marathon and you start as an uruk-hai!

 

21 days

 

17 - Hobbit, getting closer to Bree

Also as I am at the same time struggling to maintain/develop some other daily habits and noticed that this forum helps a lot with that I would love to try status update some other checks which I am battling with:
Workout - Check
ColdShower - Check
NoAlcohol - Check
HealthyDiet - Check
Learning - Check
NoYoutube - Check
SideProject - Fail

 

I am in! Day 0

 

Relapsed. I had a couple close calls, I was having to fight the urge to go fishing for triggers multiple times but unfortunately once it got really late and I got really tired, I let my guard down. Although, I'm starting to use the seasonal depression and relationship anxiety as an excuse to relapse. I'm just not really trying to distract myself at all, it's not that I don't have things to distract myself with, I'm simply not doing them for some reason even though I'm screaming at myself to distract myself even in the moment when I have the urge, but my body just doesn't want to cooperate with me.
On the plus side, I started a Minecraft playthrough with a group of friends because a really big update came out for the game. And my relationship anxiety is feeling much better today.

 

Day 2...
Yep, I relapsed again. Entered this one-week vacation expecting to finnaly get to rest, but I decided to go to work with my father. I went because I wanted to, but I see that I made a mistake, because I needed rest and I didn't give it to myself. I got home and the tiredness made it really difficult to resist the urges, which were strong as hell, along side with the self pity feeling that I had in the moment... the bad thing happenned. But let's do it again...

 

Day 6

The longest I’ve gone without relapsing over the past 10 months has typically been between 6-9 days, so naturally today was a bit of a struggle!

Saw a photo of my ex-girlfriend that stirred up some sadness and regret, but after about an hour these feelings subsided and I was left with the urge to relapse - thankfully I remained strong, and the distraction of being amongst friends was a blessing.

 

Day 291

 

Day 6

Had a conversation with an ignorant person earlier. I don't know what to say about it... I guess I'll just let them do them and I'll do me.