The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 140

 

Day 5

 

Checking in, not so moody. Got a good nights sleep, and worked out yesterday.

 

Well done brother ! There is one more thing those who believe in God can do and it is to say yourself when tempted-' If I would give in to temptation and do filthy, wrong thing in secret when no one sees it would be the same as if I would confess with this -'I don't believe in God,we are just separate bodies in space and there is no us, there is no such things as soul and spirit and even if I harm myself I won't harm anyone else'. Now do you really want to believe in and act out of this ?
There is also our honesty-integrity at stake for if we said yes and committed to something(like 500 days PMO free)and we break our word we become liars-the ones that cannot be trusted and the ones no one wants do deal with because people feel that we cannot even trust ourselves. It's automatic feeling of guilt and shame after relapse. It's death to many of your plans and shyness of other people...There is really so much at stake that we forget about or don't even aware of that we should have a reminder card for the times when we are tempted so that we could refresh our whys and what is at stake at the spot.
Make yourself your personal reminder card, put it in your wallet, in your phone on your desktop for easy access in need.
May we all have endless streaks of purity in mind and body!

 

Spoiler: Reminder card sample

I tried to make a reminder card( I think it's better when you write it by hand)and here is the result of my attempt:

 

About the challenge I know it is open and I will join, I really wanted to know about the quests that are fundamental in the development. Nofap is about it, about building and consolidating new habits, you are going the right way warrior, keep going! Thanks for the excellent response.

 

Day 13!
With a lot things to do, so will be a funny day. I don't feel so good, the girl that I'm dating is like "some days I want to be with you and other days I forget you" This situations have affected me since 3 months from now. Maybe I will try to date someone else but not decided yet. I really like her but maybe we differ in what we expect in a relationship.

These days the urges were low, so is somthig good. Always doing exercise, taking cold showers and (most of the meals) eating healthy.

Keeping strongh and always thinking: Think in sex just while having sex

 

Day 0...
I ended up relapsing and binging pretty badly. My grandpa got worse and he moved here for 4 days before being hospitalized. He will start quimiotherapy tomorrow...

And while I should have being studying and taking care of my family, I was in a dark room binging. The relapses happenned always before going to sleep and after waking up, and it took me 3 days in that rut.

I feel ashamed that I couldn't hold myself in such a dark time for my family. I see how egocentric and selfish I am.
I'm starting over for sure. I still want to be free from that hideous addicton. I've restarted my counter because I don't be counted as hobbit while I'm not, but I plan to restart it again in the new year's eve. I know those dates aren't miraculous and there's nothing special about them except for a subjective turn. But, as everyone else does, I want to get a boost from that and set some goals for the next year. This week I'll be going for a retrospective and I will analise what I did wrong and what I did right this year. Besides all relapses and binging sessions, I know that I progressed.

 

Checking in day 40. Today i had 3 meals and feel fine. Had workout and said a little prayer,walked 17k and done some shopping as well as read all your posts. It's nice to have a community of like-minded people where you can get and give support and encouragement to your brothers ! Love you guys ! God bless us all on the path to virtue.

 

Don't be sad brother, it's good to feel a deep regret for wrongdoings and admit them. Now ask God for forgiveness and firmly renounce your old ways, be sincere and mean it. The moment you do this you will feel His forgiveness and you will feel good, reborn.
When going through life don't put the way you feel dependent on the circumstances around you, do your best to always stay in love, hope and contentment and when you see people around you going through difficult times don't go to grief, fear and anxiety with them but lift them out of their pain into contentment, hope , faith and love.
p.s. There is always a silver lining to every situation on earth all we need is just learn to see it in every guise.

 

Thanks for kind words!
Yeah for me NoFap is great opportunity to break addiction, strengthen willpower, free ton of time & energy and as a little secret of mine me and my wife started couple months ago efforts around conceiving baby-and that was also moment when I started to notice some major ED which was far more shocking than any cold shower-especially in that critical time.
Still in order to survive with streak one needs to get busy-and that’s just perfect opportunity for building good habits!

I am still in process of establishing those but if you need some tips&tricks would gladly share what I’ve noticed so far.

 

38-Elf
Finished work early, got some hair cut & shopping, finished preparing home made wine, helped with cookies, played too much on phone & engaged into extremely intellectual theistic discussion-overall good day full of procrastination!

Oh also close to my apartment there was some fire-hopefully no one got hurt.
—Side Quests—
Workout - Check
ColdShower - Check
HealthyDiet - Fail
Learning - Fail
SideProject - Fail
Gratitude - Check
Meditation - Check
NoAlcohol - Fail
NoYoutube - Fail
PhoneLimit - Fail
—Perfect_Streak:

 

@Slider8 love this, nice reflection on the choices we make, and how they create who we are.

 

Day 28

Yesterday had some pretty heavy moments of lust and temptation but chose to go to a coffee shop and work where there wasn't a chance of engaging in destructive pmo habits.

Today called a friend and got a call from another friend checking in and this made me feel a lot better overall. I tend to get into moods where I get so anxious about not acting out that I act out to relieve that stress. Reaching out to others over the phone really seems to break that cycle of worry and helps connect me to others and feel less lonely.

 

Day 312

 

Day 3 - Orc, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

Happy holidays everyone!
Be well my brothers!

 

Thank you for the response, good tips