18 days PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river.
Day 0 I slipped up Saturday night and have been on something of a porn bender. Yesterday was a binge. I feel bad but I don't know what to do other than collect myself again and try again. Later today I'm going to journal about some of the things I don't like about my life right now and see if I can make any headway towards finding deeper causes of my PMO use/addiction. I might do it online, on my NoFap journal. So, I regret showing up to deliver a downer, but all my best wishes and prayers to those of you carrying on, don't give up.
Day 19 Really enjoyed today, minimal urges and feeling pretty good about myself all day. Noticed that my urges resurfaced when I have to focus on something for a long period of time - like in a lecture today. I’m guessing this is because I used to use PMO as a distraction from anything boring or mundane, but now that I actually want to focus in lectures it’s quite annoying!
Day 4 complete! Not much going on. I haven't been running very frequently lately because of the winter weather, but today I got outside for a bit. My legs certainly felt as though they hadn't been worked out as much; I chose a route that's short, but with lots of hills. It was good exercise! I did eat a bit too much at dinner afterwards, thinking it was fine because of the exercise. So now I'm just going to wrap up my homework, brush my teeth, and hopefully get to bed early. Don't worry, I do! Don't you think the saints are alive in heaven?
Night checking in Gonna stay more accountable for the next days. Even though I'm not with the hardest urges, I'm starting to reach the point where it gets hard to resist. But anyways, there's only one way to go: foward Lowness, temperance, strenght, hope and bravery!
Remember to also "attack" the temptations! With truths like how bad and hollow you will feel after falling, and that your win is another step towards freedom. Also asking God to help, you know is great! But there is something that helped me a lot too (may be even more in certain times). Saying to the devil things like, "I renounce to you", "I'm no longer your slave", "you're our enemy, leave".
Hey! Just wanted to tell you (before sleep ) to consider to quit videogames, they are a huge dopamine source and will make your journey much harder. Talking for personal experience, since I left them (and other bad dopamine sources) not only I'm stronger against temptations, but my life is much better!
Day 37 complete! doing okay, my hornynes has risen a bit, but I manage to control myself. Gonna try working without cofee today. My wife is getting depresed, because she isn’t doing the things she wanted to do on her university wacation and maybe because I started working from the office. I want to cheer her up, but the new job takes away a lot of energy. I think they are, but I don’t think they hear us, because only God is omnipresent. You are talking to someone who is not here and God who is here is thinking to himself: ‘do you want me to deliver him a message, or what is going on here?’
Day 17 - Hobbit, The Shire A very tough night. Have to be more cautious and remember what i promised myself
Day 332 no PMO. Got outside on a beautiful day yesterday. Walked almost 7 miles. I was alone last night for a few hours but had zero temptations. I’ve been listening to the book Every Man’s Battle and it’s pretty good. Have you guys read it? What did you think?
