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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Day 42 complete.
I had a temptation to look at P or MO, in a long time, usualy I just want sex. I am kinda sick again. And I am sick of being sick, I feel unstable if I can get sick that easily. I should put my foundation in God.
I had a very exhausting day at work today. Management makes such dumb decisions and always finds a way to make things harder… You know what I really need? To work for myself! It’s not quite time yet though. All will come to fruition in due time.
I’m gonna have to accept that I have to rest my foot a lot this week. I can still listen to my audio books, but I should probably take a bit of time off walking. Walking around the store today I was borderline limping.
I can feel I’ve been running out of steam today. I haven’t gotten a full nights sleep in a couple days and that doesn't mix well with the mind-numbing nature of my job. It sort-of enhances it because I either end up standing in one spot all day or moving around non-stop. I find them both exhausting in different ways and I especially feel it if I don’t get enough sleep or eat enough. I think I will let myself sleep in slightly tomorrow.
I ran into a friend quite a few times today. He told me another friend has Parkinson’s. I don’t know much about Parkinson’s and I don’t think I know how to feel about all this yet? It hasn’t really hit me what this could really mean.
I also ran into another friend. He says he and another friend are still feeling negative effects from the booster shot. He took that thing many months ago! I’m glad I never took the vaccine. I just felt intuitively to stay away from it. The irony is that many of the people who have taken it that I know have gotten way more sick than I ever did. I just hope all ends up okay for them… They are good people.
In terms of nofap I’ve had a certain level of urge, but it’s very deep and ingrained… Almost more like my brain feels something is incomplete as I haven’t masturbated to porn and thus a certain daily cycle must be completed. Of course it is wrong about that because: “I don’t need porn!”
I’m just going to do my affirmations and get ready for bed I think.
Going to start my day with a strong cup of coffee.
I feel very happy today, and there's a reason for that. I managed to remove instagram rom my life. I had been courting a young female over social media, and although I was successful, it was just horrible. That girl is not happy..man. She active like every 5-10 mins on social media and is constantly uploading something or other. I started getting hooked on her reels where she'd leave ambiguous hints. While I was hooked to her daily posts on all social media, she was hooked to the measley validation i offered. It was a toxic cycle and I'm glad I'm out of it, not sure about her... she's still there.
0 days >> Nasgûl
Hi guys, I need to join you again. I cannot do it alone. I'm willing to give up M aswell.
DAMN - WHY I always relapse on the 6th day? Its a curse... lets do this together bro!
I'll make a special plan for day 6-9 cuz these days seems to be hardest for me.
My last reason for relapse was quite dumb - had a girl here with me and we was nearly before actual sex.
But we need to be quiet cuz my shared apartment need to wake up early in the next morning.
So I was a bit frustrated and tired (because of less sleep) the next day and then it happened.
Day 337 no PMO. Yesterday was a good day. I went outside for two thirty minute walks. Came home and my wife and kids had made dinner. I know my wife did it to make me happy and I appreciate that.
I for sure experience this. I’d say its the Main reasoning to my relapses
Morning checking in
I just added a new goal to reach: more 40 days. I've never gone that far, but I know that it's possible and I'll do my best to reach it.
Today anger seems to have reduced, maybe it has something to do with exercising or spending some time alone.
Check in day 120
Next target 150 days wish me luck
Do it Bro!
Thanks my brother, you are rigth, now I know that something that don't help me is to be sad (something that I didn't know before). Thanks for the reply and for your adivce!
I'm in the battle again, I did exercise and ate healthy today. I have a lot of job task to do, so I will be busy today. Keeping strong!
Day 4 of my journey. Feeling confident with another productive day.
Lets see where the wind goes
To be sad or to have a bad day is one of my triggers also. Experts say that if you have a habit and you stop it you need to compensate it. Listening to music change my mood (also buying things in Amazon but is not a good habit), watch a movie (one from broly), some DBZ chapters, etc
Check in day 9. I am not an orc anymore. Yey.
Sorry guys I am not very enthusiastic, I know. I am going through a tough time. Emotional I am close to a break down due to love issues. I hate being so far away and not being able to sit together and disscuss this issue just as a normal couple would. I hate crying on what's up video and not being understood because the internet is not good enough. I can't explain what the issue is but it started long time ago. We avoided this topic for about two weeks but yesterday shortly before I wanted to sleep it pop up again. And we could not disscuss because I knew that I had to sleep because I had to wake up at 5 AM.
I manage to get through this day and I came to the solution to lay it down on Gods feeds. I am not gonna faith and I am not gonna manipulate or what ever because I can't see through my emotions and reasons anymore.
I know this isn't a therapie session but I am kind of glad I can tell it somebody. I wish my fiance and I would have a couple or some good friends to go to together. I want that both sides are heard and someone would help us, but this isn't easy to find.
Day 23. Quite a stressful day today, but still going strong!
Not everyone can renounce themselves to become what they can be...well at least on their own.I don't think anything in life is truly arbitrary. We just tend to be blind to underlying causes and their influences on what looks to us as arbitrary. If you choose to follow your true nature and stay loyal to it -you are bound to become great naturally whereas if you too much accommodating to what others think you should be you cannot become great. You cannot become great following someone else's dreams.
"Put aside the Ranger, become who you were born to be"
“Ónen i-Estel Edain”“ Ú-chebin estel anim.”
As a matter of fact you are not giving up anything, but on the other hand drug addict who 'gives up' something like heroin thinks that he gives up a really 'valuable' staff, which no normal person wants to be even near him. What value do you see in pmoing for your life, for yourself, how much time have you already wasted, try to calculate and think how your life could be different if you invested it in some beneficial pursuit?