8 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content) 3 AM and can't sleep. My head hurts. 4:04 AM still unable to fall asleep. Pain in head I'm serious about recover after yesterday night. There's still some head pain. I'll make some coffee and get along with my day.
The longer you go without the more you 'enjoy' it and the deeper is the need to get the same dopamine high again, but can you survive without it or are you going to die without pmo? Is the urge going to kill you if you won't act out on it? No? Then why are you afraid? Why do you give in? You know that the reward is a sweet poison. C'mon bro, is it worth to pay with long suffering for the moment of slavery to sweetness?
Man I can't believe... just a few minutes ago I got a message in my inbox from a kik bot wanting to chat on kik for "sex chat".
Day 28 Been feeling especially tired today which hasn’t helped with urges, sat down to watch a film this evening and noticed my mind wandering to the thought of relapse. Thankfully the thought didn’t fester, but as I approach my PB I’m becoming more and more cautious of the state of my mind and how to avoid letting unhelpful thoughts take root. Day off tomorrow and off to see my first rugby game, I’ve made it safely past the Ford of Bruinen - onwards to Rivendell!
Bath is also a trigger for me but I have threatened my mind with cold water if the temptation arises, so I am still managing it.
Day 11 I have had stronger urges and many times in the day I thought that the streak is over, but I am still here preparing everything for my journey. Have a great day.
@I'm Strength If you wake up at 3am try to pray brother. At that hour satanic groups/evil spiritists tend to make their rituals and may make some of us wake up.
@Kairose where from do you know that 3AM is the ritual hour? I am interested because I heard that a few people are waking up at similar time with irrational thoughts that make them worry. Day 46 complete. Doing good, no major urges, except for when my wife came back home. No phishing or unescesary looking at girs profiles, though I peek at women in my office then turn away.
Day 7 complete! Urges were high when I woke up and stayed that way for most of the day. After dinner, however, a small group of my brother seminarians was being enrolled in what's called the Angelic Warfare Confraternity--a worldwide group of people inspired by St. Thomas Aquinas who specifically pray for purity--and on an impulse I joined them. In the hours since putting that medal around my neck, the urges have completely vanished. Now, can I expect this to be the standard from now on? I don't think so. Are there a lot of people in this thread who won't understand? Most likely. But this feels powerful, and I think it's going to be a huge help. St. Michael the Archangel, pray for us!
If something makes you happy, and you are not hurting anyone then do it. Does not care what people thinks.
A warm bath in the evening can be a good place to gather ones mind. I like that about it, but I feel like my brain equates no pants with time to pmo. As a result I try to almost always have at least boxers on.
Day 6 I am now engaged with “The Book of Five Rings.” I suspect there will be good teachings in here. I am likely not ready for the wisdom. I feel an urge to find a certain enlightenment… It burns inside of me and is the source of much stress. If I had financial independence I think I would pursue nothing but this goal. I know in my heart that first I must conquer my lust and become financially free to become the best that I can be.
From either Gabriele Amorth or father Jose Antonio Fortea (I'm almost certain from Gabriele). They probably are the two greatest exorcists of our times. I like to study angelology/demonology. He says that 3am, being the farthest hour from Jesus' death (3pm), it's when God's enemies choose to make that kind of practices. He thinks tho that it doesn't really have any effect to do it at that hour, it would be the same to do it at 11pm. But since most of them do it at 3am, all that hate and demonic movement is concentrated there.
