Some temptations due to chaser, but overcome them and bonded with my gf. Day 1 - Orc, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr
Thank you, and yes! I'm one day behind your new counter, brother, let's keep it that way Haha, that can happen. As you see from profile picture, I really like those movies. One of the better quotes is when Doc says "[Y]our future hasn't been written yet, no one's has. Your future is whatever you make it, so make it a good one". Maybe good to keep in mind when you're struggling
Checking in. All good so far, but already broke rules yesterday. Had phone in the bedroom. Today's goal, no phone in bedroom. Baby step #1. And of course, no pmo.
That! But it´s also important to have faith in the future. Believe you can be permanently free from porn and masturbation. And you must also believe that your strategy will get you there! that´s why it´s important to improve our strategy everytime we fall. So that our subconscious mind feels that we´re on the right path, and not repeating ourselfs. Hopelessness is a powerful ally of the addiction. Firm believe is the opposite Keep going brother!! You´re doing great
Day 8 Lavel up and having one of the worst days I had in a long time. Moved in to my new apartment with my wife after living 4 months in a wonderful sublet apartment. Going into the new place, the toilet is leaking and everything is wat, the wifi wire are disconnected and almost cut. Everything kind of small like old people and dust. And while all of it was a challenge in itself, my wife just had a real panic attack because of everything. She is in the middle of her exams, and I don't have a job yet and we have paid 6 months in advance to this place (No one was willing to rent us so we had to offer money in advance). So I was stuck all day waiting for the plumber after staying up all night trying to calm her down. And ALL I WANTED IS TO WATCH PORN! Knowing that this is simply the only way my brain knows to deal with problems didn't help much. I'm an Uruc Hai, but I don't feel like celebrating
Day 4 I've been fighting off memories of porn last night and it was making my physical urges act up as well. But I've managed not to crack, now things have calmed down for the most part, but I'm definitely afraid that I'm going to reset again in the very near future. Plus I think I'm flatlining again, been feeling like just the slightest provocation is going to set me off. So yeah, not a great night.
Checking in Fellowship!! I think we are all united in supporting Ukraine, that´s so great . Let´s us hope that the conflict will end fast with the minimum casualties possible As for our inner struggle, 21 days here, hardmode. Better day today, more energy, more motivation and no brain fog . Anxiety is still here though. For those who are struggling, be patient brothers and don´t lose hope. you can do this! Checking out brave Warriors!! Have a great day and an amazing weekend ahead. Let´s us spread love and hope.
Day 21! Worked out and ate helthy. Problems to sleep yestarday but everything is going fine this morning. Working in my discipline and self control. Keep strong my brothers and sisters!
8 days, gone from orc to uruk-hai. Some dangerous surfing has been today with fishing, and I even saw some semi-triggering stuff. But I know I would regret a relapse, even though urges are strong. Decided to order some new running shoes. During my longest streak I ran almost everyday in the beginning, and I didn't feel the need to get dopamine rushes online, so about time I get that going again. Congratulations on reaching triple digits! It just goes to show that hard work, discipline and focus pays off sooner or later
Daily Check In and Quotes: "As they sang the hobbit felt in love of beautiful things made by hands and by cunning and by magic moving through him, a fierce and a jealous love, the desire of the hearts of dwarves." — J.R.R. Tolkien, The Hobbit Sometimes, nothing seems more desirable than to feel the neurochemical magic that moves through us when we engage in gratifying our lust. We imagine or anticipate that surrendering to an urge will bring release from stress, relief from suffering, and escape from loneliness or feelings of lack. But revelling in mental fantasies, hungrily devouring endless empty images, and attempting to fill emotional voids of meaning by fapping into them will never bring lasting satisfaction or sustainable purpose. These behaviors are counterfeits to the things we lack, and our want of these things causes our loneliness and fear: Secure bonding with other human beings, grateful appreciation for beauty and goodness in the world, deliberate self-acceptance and self-actualization, and healthy intimacy within caring relationships. Although our quest to destroy the forces of PMO is noble and beneficial, we must remember that PMO are cunning; we fall prey to their siren songs because they work so well as a quick and easy medication that temporarily alleviates the symptoms of our deeper lack. The problem is that the PMO pills are extremely addictive, have terrible long-term side effects from regular use, and do absolutely NOTHING to heal the underlying disease. They are much worse than a placebo, for they have no positive placebo effect. They are poisonous painkillers. As Bilbo discovered on his quest "there and back again," we need to find our home and all that it represents; we need to focus on forming habits that build our sense of meaning and self respect, forming relationships that are mutually nurturing and supportive, and forming thought patterns that appreciate goodness. "Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." — Phillipians 4:8 (NIV)