The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Very good bro. Nice and steady. Keep going!!!

 

Excellent brother!!! You arrived at Amon Hen . You´re a Warrior now. Keep going!!!!

 

Excellent brother, the gates of the Argonath are before you. The Pillars of Kings

 

sorry bro, masturbation is not allowed in the challenge so i have to put you back on Orc status.

yes, the slacking of good habits is what made you slip in the first place. brother, never let your good habits come in second place. good habits are more important than willpower. always do your reboot work brother. always. it´s crucial for the reboot and it´s necessary to gain life quality . Let´s go!!!!

 

you´re Saruman´s creation , not Saruman itself. Let´s go my brother. Keep rebellion URUK-HAI!!!!

 

My brothers, i have done pmo.

There was this idea that was haunting me on the last days about doing one last time before entering the “highway”. This is because i believe that after passing the 90 days mark, which was a big battle for me, i sense that i gained the basics of rebooting and from now on it would be pretty much following my system until the brain rewires totally.

Basically i sense that from now on is only a matter of time and system execution. No efforts and no hard work would be needed. Everything flows naturally. So i thought i should do one last time, before leaving it for good. Almost like a goodbye ritual.

I do not regret what i did, however i see that my behaviour lacks logic since i know that i did what i´m trying to get away from. But i really sense i needed to do it. In fact i did it on purpose.

I recognize this is an addict behaviour, pretty much like an alcoholic having one last scotch before leaving it for good.

Some of you my brothers may understand, some may not. For other people who are not addicted this is beyond comprehension, i understand.

At the same time, the focus that i did on the 90 days really contribute to my “goodbye ritual” and the “it´s done” mindset. If i didn´t create expectations on the 90 days milestone, i wouldn´t have wanted one last indulgence, since naturally if i still wanted to pmo, that means the addiction is still here.

So once again time is an abstract concept. we should not let a mathematical count gives us a sense of confidence and fullfilment.

Let this be a reminder to me and to you all my brothers:

When we reach 500 days in this challenge, we won this challenge. That´s it. We have probably rebooted our brains by then. However, after 500 days, if there´s still a desire to pmo or engage in any kind of lustful behaviour, that means the addiction is still alive, so we must continue our work for the time that is necessary.

Don´t create expectations on the 500 days my brothers. Nothing especial will happen at day 500. As addicts or ex-addicts our goal will always be the same: live this day without pmo. What´s gonna happen during the 500 days is that we will master how to live the days without pmo, and reap the benefits of it.

Day 0

 

nop, i´m sure that if you engage in real sex, you´ll be very aroused.

yes, the more you going into the reboot the more you´ll see porn as poison, and pmo as unnatural fake stimulation. so it´s natural to feel disgusted by that.

semen retention as a lot of benefits, it will greatly increase the physical and mental energy. besides the more i study about rebooting the more i see that even masturbation itself is not benefitial. i´m married, so sex is part of my natural life. but if i was single, after knowing what i know, i would not engage in masturbation. i rather stay abstinence.

the all point that we must indulge our sexual urges is nonsense. urges are manageable. we´re not gonna die if we refrain from masturbation. lot´s of buddist monks are abstinents and they live long, healthy and happy . it´s only a matter of discipline and knowing what´s best for you.

yeah, the last paragraph of my previous post may seem a little depressive but it´s not intented to. what i meant, is to not create expectations that when we reach 500 days "it´s done", "we are free", bla bla... because that way we will tend to focus on the "event" and not in the process which is our own life. this can make the reboot harder to endure and create illusionary expectations about that particular day. tecnically we don´t know how day 500 will feel like. so instead, let´s just live one day at a time without pmo, and when we feel good physical and mental health and no desire to pmo, we´re free