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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Thank you brother.
Day 376 no PMO. Last night was the father daughter dance. My 4th grader and I went on a dinner date, ice cream before the dance, the dance and then ice cream again after the dance. We had the best time! When I tucked her in last night I just laid with her listening to love songs until she fell asleep in my arms. It was such a great evening. At the dance the other dads were standing in the corners talking to each other while me and a very few others were dancing and playing with our daughters. I know they probably all thought I was an idiot but I just didn’t care. It was about my daughter having a good time and not about impressing others. Being free from PMO this long has helped my self esteem a ton and I’m doing much better in all aspects of my life including being the dad I want to be. Not sure if you guys remember but a little over a year ago I skipped watching my daughter play softball to stay home and PMO. I’m so grateful that this path is working to heal me. You guys have a great day!
Day 30...Pointy ears and Brilliant sight...today is the day to see the elven sunrise...Elf now....Excited...
That's awesome, hopefully that stays with her as one of those good childhood memories she can always go back to.
Very important, I believe this perception is what leads to the "***" behaviour, that seems to be very popular today amongst men. Put a woman on a pedestal as if she is above you, deserving your full attention without any work from her end. Very dangerous. Give your attention to a woman deserving of it and do not give it for free, and never place her on a pedestal. Thank you for sharing this brother!
Glad to hear the purchase went through, congratulations!
I understand the shame you mention, for I had the exact same shame for the same reason as you. Best we feel it, it stands as a good reminder of what we do not want to go back to.
Yes, this is well documented in my notes and important for all who take on this path. So thank you for sharing! Excess dopamine also messes up your androgen receptors, which in turn messes up your Testosterone levels. The spikes you mention are especially bad for those who binge, here is an article in relation to binge.
Checking in Fellowship Friends,
Day 408 free of MO and day 17 free of porn.
I've been adding a quick morning remedy to help alleviate anxiety and certain morning urges, perhaps it will help you. It's part of my daily goals for the next two months.
As I finish breakfast, I go outside for 5-10 mins. Just to get some fresh air and natural light, which also helps regulate my circadian rhythm. Given many of us spend a lot of time at home (or at least I assume)whether study from home, work from home or are currently without employment due to the pandemic. Like anything else, it's not something that will have an impact on you overnight, it takes time for the dividends to be paid. So be patient.
Dawn of the 1st day.
Really sorry for this misstep... Totally unexpected, at least for me...
I know you will get back up but still, when a brother falls, it's sad for all of us..
Check in day 159
That's good brother, missteps are part of the journey - no point in dwelling but just get back on the horse. You have a strong determination and willpower, so I believe this reset will not have any effect on your path to freedom.
Day 0 again. The chasers got me last night.
The latest reset has got me thinking, I may have to take more drastic measures on trying to beat this thing, because the thoughts and memories are just giving me too much trouble. And every time I think got it under control, something happens that'll make me reset. I'm going to start limiting my media use on the weekdays.
Beginning with limiting my internet to reporting in once a day, check my e-mails, meditation, do any actual business, or I really need to look up something. As for gaming, I'm going to play no more than an hour a day, but I'm staying away from the risque content until I get a better handle on this. Now on the weekends, when it's my time to unwind from the week, that's when I'll ease up on myself and not worry about it.
What do you guys think, just right, a little extreme, not extreme enough?
Erotic dream again, no emissions this time. My mind plays tricks with me. There is a situation that when is shown in my dreams is very difficult to not relapse, last time I needed a very cold shower for 30 sec. Why? Because it presents a situation that is impossible, it is only possible in the dreams, this is why is so strong. This is the main craving that I must fight and is not gone so easily by abstention. I need to work on this.
Besides that, the day has been transcurring normally. I took advantage of a Kindle Unlimited trial to get access to some books about cracking interviews for free. Also, because I have Amazon Prime I got 90 of audible for free. I am putting every card on the table.
And the journey continues ...
I am sorry to hear this happened brother, but I am happy to see that you intend to keep fighting. This is why I have said, you've grown! Keep at it, do not binge. It is never worth it. Cheers to us both, we will be reaching triple digits together again soon !
An orc again, keep strong my brothers!
Hello @ListenPaul, in a couple of days you'll feel better. If you don't binge you'll notice that you have grown a lot and the next one will be better. We are in this together.
Checking in day 112.
Insights like this are powerful. Investigate that concept fully—you CAN find (create, receive, perceive, pursue) healthier ways to deal with stress. There are many, many great ideas in this forum and other resources. Keep fighting on!
As there isn’t a “triple maximum love” button on here, only a “like” option, I just wanted to triple maximum love your post. That’s what it is all about brother!